If you have Lilith in the first house of their chart, matters relating to her take on an exaggerated importance in your life. Your life is one that will take on Lilith themes likely from a very young age, and you will embody her essence. That wound, that anger, that drive to change the world and make your own way will likely manifest early on.
Since the first house also rules the body, it will manifest physically as well. This is particularly true the closer Lilith is to the Ascendant. There will be something dark, hypnotic, and wild about you. It will attract and intimidate in equal measure!
You’ll be driven by a desire to carve out a space for yourself in the world that feels safe, authentic, and true. Since you become aware of the danger and cruelty of the world at such an early point in your youth, you will highly value situations in which you are able to be your real, dark, vulnerable-yet-powerful self. Lilith’s story is one of loss and wandering, and so too will you likely feel cast out, rejected, and like your life is a journey to finally find your way home to yourself.
Because Lilith is a process, you’ll find these themes unfolding throughout your life. At certain times you may really embody the wound, and at other times the rage. Sometimes you’ll get to sick and tired of the whole thing that you deny Lilith altogether, and at other times you come out swinging, ready to burn it all to the ground.
While there are many, many more ways it could manifest, one thing is certain. With Lilith in the first house, you are a fighter. Born to protest, born to love, and born to take down your oppressors and shine a light in the darkness. The world needs you, warrior. Saddle up.
Do you have Lilith if the first house? How has it manifested for you?
I do! It’s in Scorpio tightly conjunct my ASC, which I feel makes it that more dark and dangerous. And honestly, I’ve never really paid that much attention to that placement other than noticing that men seem to want to just have sex with me rather than date me.
Some of this does resonate with me – I have Mean Lilith tightly conjunct my ASC, but I believe it’s on the 12th house side. True Lilith is also in my 12th, conjunct Mars. I look forward to reading that post if that’s where this is leading!
Wow, this resonates so well with me. Thank you for this. I have Lilith in 1st house Virgo, 5 degrees from my ascendant. Lilith is new to me and I look forward to examining this aspect further.
And conjunct my moon. ?
I’m the same but 2°
i have it in leo conjunct my ascendant and my pluto and then square my mars in scorpio in fourth house. lots of fights for justice, lots of going deep, as a healer and sometimes as a disruptor for the sake of healing the group. the world, this is more in my past, am a bit lost with my path at the moment after 2 1/2 years of loss and extreme stress
Black Lilith in my 1st House, Aquarius has been very much as you describe. I knew the dark sides of life early on, hid from the power of what a little girl knows because there was no room for that power in our house. That would come later, in cycles of discovery. I have commented on this in one of your earlier Lilith posts … The journey of revolution, and warrior is a long one if you manage to survive the battles over time. As you’ve written one of the tricks is to retreat and heal when the desire to go only-ever onward tempts Lilith. Packing for the long haul is important and learning who is a true ally in honest solidarity? A vital skill to hone.
Excellent article, Midara. Black Moon Lilith is fleshing out marvelously. I appreciate the insight and add it to my pack!
You rock Midara! I hope this will be a thread through all the houses.
My 12th house Virgo Lilith conjuncts my 12th house Virgo sun at +1°12′ and Virgo Ascendant at +2°20′
It also Squares my Gemini Midheaven at -1°28′
And Semi-squares my 11th house Leo North Node at -0°04′
So you can imagine how I look forward to your future Lilith
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Attraction or intimidation or plain dislike at first sight.
I have Asc in Virgo 25″ and Lilith 0″ in Libra.
Like when you go to a party single and the girlfriends hug immediately their boyfriends to mark their territory right away. Weird!
It still baffles me that in a new work place someone just doesn’t like me right away. I always try in new places… and it always happens.
That’s very interesting. First House, Aquarius.
I am constantly quoting:
Say not the struggle nought availeth,
The labour and the wounds are vain,
The enemy faints not, nor faileth,
And as things have been they remain.
If hopes were dupes, fears may be liars;
It may be, in yon smoke concealed,
Your comrades chase e’en now the fliers,
And, but for you, possess the field.
For while the tired waves, vainly breaking
Seem here no painful inch to gain,
Far back through creeks and inlets making,
Comes silent, flooding in, the main.
And not by eastern windows only,
When daylight comes, comes in the light,
In front the sun climbs slow, how slowly,
But westward, look, the land is bright.
I will not let my comrades down. 🙂
My ASC is in the early degrees of Taurus. The rest of the sign and house are empty, except for a close conjunction with True Lilith (Rx), South Node, and Pallas Athenas around the 17 degree.
Whatever little info I’ve found on that aspect, it doesn’t resonate. My persona is quite the opposite of “darkly sexual” like I’ve read somewhere else. I don’t attract men, with the exception of a few creeps that are fascinated with the “innocent shy girl” idea and think that I am that way. I’m well into my 20s, and I’ve never had a relationship or any romantic experience, but not for lack of wanting.
I do relate to the wound and rage you write about here. Makes more sense to me. I wonder if it matters when Lilith is retrograde. I’d also like to know how you guys think she would play out conjunct the S-Node and Pallas.
My first house as well. This resonates with me.Thank you so much.
Spot on.
Ok Elsa, you’re depth of expression is drawing a second comment out of me. I take within me your ipowerful nsight on my True Lilith 29d conjunct Capricorn 26d Ascendent. Frankly, my wildness is such that integrating into the world has always been a source of difficulty. It’s only in the last few years (46yo) that I’ve felt a kind’ve reconciliation with the world, due to the space of where my purpose is. Transiting Pluto nearing my Lilith ascendent I believe is the catalyst that is empowering and pushing my Lilith out into the world for all to see, warts and all.
P.S one great thing about Lilith on the ascendent I shall say is my sex appeal. Men even hit on me as much as women discreetly drool.
I’m very new to astrology and still trying to understand my placements. I have Lilith in the first house in gemini, my ascendant. I also have a Venus gemini in the 12th house. This resonated a lot with me.
I have an 1H Aquarius Moon/Lilith Conjunction, opposite my exact 7H Venus Mars Leo Conjunction(I literally have nothing BUT conjunctions)
Dark? Physical? My childhood was deeply rooted in trauma, along side my Sun/Venus Aquarius Father, LEO rising, Pluto 1H. He ruined my self image, with constant verbal emotionally abuse with regards to my weight. I ended up being 300lbs by the time I was 15.
I’m Pluto Conjunct Ascendant transit too tho. Lots of dying and being reborn, a few reconstructive cosmetic surgeries, new state, new life, more dying, lots of drugs, lots of near death experience, one marriage, one divorce, the death of our friend(a day that Venus Conjunct mars in Leo) but still hadnt done the Lilith work yet.
I never knew my worth, and I use to conceal every fact I just willingly listed. Aquarius Moon/Black Lilith Moon, is how I lost myself by hiding who I was, out of fear. I’ve hated the way I looked since age 5. I thought if I talked about what happened to me, people would call me a victim. So I hid right out in front of everybody.
I was gangster at it too. Until Pluto left my 12H, and entered my 1H. It’s been a dark human experience since day 1. I’m good with it tho, cause now I’ve been forced to let go of my shame, and see everything for what it is.
It hasn’t been pretty, but it’s been legit worth it. I can only imagine what this all looks like when Pluto enters Aquarius next???♀️??????
I’ve just noticed transiting Black Moon Lilith is conjunct Uranus exact, both in retrograde. In my case, she and Uranus incite very churned up activity in my pysche and physical body in my 4th House HOME.
This paragraph from your article: “You’ll be driven by a desire to carve out a space for yourself in the world that feels safe, authentic, and true. Since you become aware of the danger and cruelty of the world at such an early point in your youth, you will highly value situations in which you are able to be your real, dark, vulnerable-yet-powerful self. Lilith’s story is one of loss and wandering, and so too will you likely feel cast out, rejected, and like your life is a journey to finally find your way home to yourself.”
Magnified in intensity as my husband and I try to carve that safe space out once again. At 73 am I FINALLY on my way home to myself??
I have Lilith in the first house in Taurus, conjunct Jupiter. There have definitely been times in my life when I felt wanted only in a sexual way. In my mid-20s, I turned that disempowered feeling around and became a stripper! I derived a tremendous sense of power from this. Indeed, I became a dancer in order to reclaim my power…it was a somewhat unconscious move, but I soon realized that it was all about reconnecting with my Self. And I did.
That is over now, but I am still fascinated with the workings of Lilith in my life. She is wild and free. Whenever I feel the need to go completely wild, I realize that I haven’t given my wild side enough attention. These days I take care to let her out, lest she take over. That way I can live in balance. Thanks for your post. I feel Lilith isn’t fully understood yet, but at least we are trying. Cheers :).
Thank you for this article, it really resonated with me and deepened my understanding of that aspect for me. Mine is in pisces my and conjunct vesta, which is also in the first house. As a child I had strange illnesses that would come and go. I tried many healing modalities, and not much worked until I saw a shaman. Now that I’ve spent 10 years healing I feel great and am a healer in the mental health field, as well as an artist with a free and wild soul. I advocate for what is just and try to protect those I love fiercely.
I have Lilith in the 1st house conjunct Venus in Gemini. I also have a Taurus ascendant and Taurus sun. Plus Mars in the 8th house, Oh my!
Have I always felt beautiful? hell no. In fact my self esteem growing up was shit. Even though others saw me as attractive and as a threat. But now in my 30’s I’ve reclaimed my power and went through a huge transformation recently. I feel the power of Lilith in me. Having Lilith conjunct my Venus gives my Venus a more interesting look and feel in a dark sexy, non-conforming way. Like a rebel without a cause. Yes I do feel the stares from strangers when I’m out in public, I feel their desire for me and I also feel the hate and jealousy from others too. It’s a very interesting placement and very much a part of who I am. I wouldn’t change it for the world even though I did go through hell growing up, that experience is what made me who I am today.
I have Lilith conjunct Saturn 1st in Cancer