I write a lot. I talk a lot. I move around all the time and exercise for the same reason. If I don’t, I’ve got big trouble. My energy backs up and I get kind of crazy. I feel a lot of angst.
We’re all responsible for managing our energy so that it doesn’t impact others in negative ways. I feel like a thoroughbred race horse. The horse is born to run; this is reason it’s here. The horse’s life consists of getting ready to run, running and then recovering from running.
If you take a horse like that or a person like me and you tie them down, you’re killing the horse and perverting nature. That horse is not going to thrive.
This reflects the 9th house Mars Mercury conjunction in my chart as well as Jupiter’s placement. But what about you?
What are you supposed to do in this world?
I would love to know.
I used to think I knew, but I don’t anymore.
Jilly, stop it, you’re a poet!!
I’m looking for this purpose! But I know I don’t feel “complete” unless I’ve made a sort of contribution to the world – using my creativity… I guess you can say I’m still finding that out (and it’s causing me NIGHTS of insomnia right now 🙁 )
Domestician. 😉
I haven’t written anything in a long time. Maybe I’m just hibernating. 🙂
I sometimes think I am supposed to be just one big breast! I nurture anyone and everyone who lets me! Even when I was working my nickname was “Mum”.
I think I’m supposed to make stuff. Which I do, so okay then. But right now I am not making stuff for the public/a purpose, and I don’t know how, so that’s a problem.
I used to think I ‘knew.’ Then everything changed and someone handed me a pair of high heels and said I was supposed to wear them now and not my other comfy shoes, so I’ve been teetering around on them, going down one path and then the next, looking, looking, breathlessly (to borrow a line from Castaneda).
Though some things haven’t changed: compassion for others, service to others, a need to say what I’ve got to say . . .and that’s all good.
Do you look to your personal planets, sun, moon mercury mars for clues?
A teacher, which I am.
I hear ya, Lis. I am a creative person and creative talents are absolutely useless for pay, especially right now. I am totally expendable and I get thrown out first in a budget cut. I cannot think of anything I have to offer that’s necessary and can’t be thrown out.
“Maybe I’m just hibernating”
exactly, jilly. i am an artist and i frame my periods of silence as conceptualizing. and i don’t think i’d be able to produce the work i am now, say, 5 years ago. knowledge/experience has a HUGE impact in the creative world.
As for what I’m supposed to do, I am doing it. I am exactly where I need to be at all times.
hey, my comment got eaten…but i realized i wrote one bit wrong: i meant knowledge/experience has a huge impact on creative expression. i was reading jennifer’s comment at the same i was writing, OOPS!
yes, where can we see this in our chart? Anyone?
Pixie, you can ask that question on the beginner board and it might be less likely to get lost. I’d answer it myself but have no idea what chart / system you are using and no familiarity with astro.com which I guess most use – but others do!
Usually the aspects are listed somewhere but not knowing what you are looking at makes it impossible to help… er, you could put up a pic on the board, or a link..
Yeah I think creativity is cyclical/recharges. But I quit playing music after being a musician for a long time so who knows? (THough Nept sq Nept is making me think about picking it up again.)
“yes, where can we see this in our chart?”
The sign on the MC is a good start along with aspects to it. Also, any planets in the 10th house is a good indication.
For example, Mars close to the MC suggests someone interested in sports, mercury conjunct could mean a writer etc etc.
Hope that helps.
ha ha ha, I cannot sign into my blog at the moment… left a comment like one of you guys and it went straight into the spam filter.. ::snort::
Oh Jennifer that’s awful and sad.
I think I am not meant to do just one thing.
I have no idea.
something that is creative and helps people would be my guess but anything more specific than that I am COMPLETELY lost on.
ok, will do later. Checked the board out briefly and haven’t signed in. Plus I will have to put up my pic with a funky sombrero that i have on my home computer.
Any thoughts on what Venus & Jupiter conjunct the MC might mean in this context? The sign on the MC is Aries. I don’t have much other fire in my chart so I wonder if I don’t know how to utilize this energy.
PixieDust – on the Bob Marks astrologer site, under astrology lessons, there is a “What are aspects” lesson that lists the symbols for all the aspects.
I used that list of aspect symbols to read the aspects grid that shows up just under your chart at astro.com. It’s a graph on which you see the aspect symbols. The symbol appears on the grid at the intersection of the 2 planets to which it relates.
I’ve probably made it clear as mud! Hope this is responsive to what you are wondering about.
Well, I figure I have to wait it out for years until things change again. I don’t WANT to, mind you, but I’m just plain stumped and I’ve never exactly had a knack with a business plan (Neptune in 2nd) in the first place. It is a big haze. I just got through reading another one of those self-help books and they were all, “Find some way to make yourself useful,” but I have nothing useful except typing (which is what I do for pay). I can’t help but think sometimes this mountain is too darn high and hard and fogged up to climb.
Hah, I have Mars on the MC and I have never been into sports.
Venus and Jupiter on the MC sounds good…love plus luck? Hm. Modeling? (hah) Advice counselor? Romance novelist?
My MC doesn’t have anything to do with what I do for a living, which I don’t equate with what I’m supposed to do in the world.
Though I have at times been a major workaholic with what I do for a living….
Mercury conjunct MC, square Uranus in 6th. Definitely comes through: I communicate, connect, translate, write, serve as devil’s advocate and move around quite a bit. Plenty of space and intellectual freedom, learning, don’t have to sit still or be bored. Makes my Gemini ASC happy 🙂
‘take responsibility for managing our energy ‘- i love that elsa!!! it makes me think of how awesome oppositions can be in a chart- having both energies mixing. so, managing our energy means we are at the wheel- and it means there is no such thing as a bad chart. you either make static energy or kinetic… spin your wheels or drive. sorry, i am rambler, i just really like your concept!
My progressed sun finally went into Cancer about 10 days ago, and my progressed moon is still in cancer for another month after which I will have a progressed lunar return.
The most surprising and unexpected thing in the world has happened to me. All of a sudden, I want a house full of kids. I am talking about adopting older kids out of the American foster care system. I am already in love with two girls and 3 sets of sibling groups. I want five kids.
I want to wake up every morning and make breakfast for my kids and take them to school and take them everywhere they need to go.
I would be adopting as a single parent on the old side, but that is OK! There are so many older kids and sibling groups needing to be adopted out of the foster care system.
Everyone (astrologers) kept telling me something SHOCKING was going to happen to me…anyone who has known me at all, nothing could be more shocking…I have never wanted kids in my life.
Now I want five, and I want to devote the remainder of my life to being a mom.
hmmm, venus jup in aries on mc
– running a fat kids camp as a weight loss instructor.
-travel guide in a hot air balloon over the nordic countries, getting lostin /exploring new territory
-doctor/ nurse or selling to hospitals / involved in prost.limbs to men/or soldiers-
That’s really fascinating, Loonsounds! I hope you’ll keep posting on this. I’ve never really been very maternal, despite being a Cancer ascendant. Much more loving with animals than kids, to be honest.
Jennifer & aml – thanks for your thoughts re: my Jupiter/Venus conjunction with MC. I have no idea how you guys are coming up with these but it’s interesting/entertaining & appreciated.
I will do that bew. I alway thought my whole life would just be me and however many dogs I have (usually three, right now two). But this is a very, very strong desire I am experiencing, and when I look at the US foster kids needing adopting, there are SO MANY! And, over a certain age, no one wants them. Well, I do if it is God’s will. I also trust God to connect me with the right kids for me, and the ones who will derive the greatest benefit from what I have to offer. I will be an interesting mom. I can’t imagine being strict, stern, or imposing very many rules, and they will each have their own room (up to three anyway ;-). I have a lot of love to give! Why restrict it to dogs when there are adolescent humans needing love and homes! Hit me like a ton of bricks!
Ooo Loonsounds, let us know what happens! I know some people who were thinking about adopting, and their concern was that they would be older parents and that it might not be ideal. The answer to all those concerns is that the kids would obviously be better with someone who wants them and who can take care of them, offering them a much better life than they would have otherwise– who cares about age??
I hope it works out for you, I really do!
That is a good question. Since I’m not working right now, this is something I think about often.
I realized recently that I love to shift people’s perspective. Whether it is training them on a software package, or writing a poem that makes them think a little differently, it just feels like that is what I do naturally.
How that translates into this world/economy time will tell. For now, I’m focused on my life with my hubby, my garden and caring for my doggie who is in his golden years. I suppose that is plenty really.
ps. This news will ‘shock’ everyone I have ever known (and me too, I am shocked!!!) and supposedly will change my entire identity in a big way (I never thought I’d be “mom” to anyone but a dog).
Here’s more astrology:
T. Uranus will conjunct my AC (shocking new identity), opp. saturn (responsibility) and Venus is going back and forth over my AC (love and money) and T venus is going back and forth over my Venus (Venus return X 3!), and, like I said, lunar return coming also.
I kept reading something surprising might happen, but in a zillion years, I would never have guessed THIS!!!
Yes pixiedust, and I am willing to take kids up to age 14 or so, especially if they are part of a sibling group. I can’t believe all of the beautiful sibling groups I am seeing available on the US foster care system. If they are older or a sib. group, there usually is not much in the way of special needs. I applaud people who can take health care special needs, but I can’t, I know myself. I can do a certain level of mental health special needs though. They are all going to have grieving and loss experiences. But it is so amazing and awful to see things like “shaken baby syndrome.” These babies tend to be brain damaged forever, So sad! But I can help with the older kids. Can’t wait! Jup/Uranus conjunct within 1 degree in the 5th house…when I do something, I do it in a BIG way which can sometimes be very Shocking and Abrupt!
Thanks for your good wishes!
Wow! Congrats! All I got when Uranus crossed my Asc was hit by a car. 😛
Yuck Jilly ouch! Hope it didn’t do any long term harm.
I didn’t get them yet! I want some girls for sure. I could be happy with all girls. But I didn’t get them yet. But thanks for the early grats! I will take that as hopeful./
Loons that is so beautiful that you are exploring that, thank you for being you.
Jilly we used to be able to link to your blog…any desire to link us again?
Lover
🙂
I was put here to write, make books, and make love. I’ve done quite a bit of all three and hope I’m not done yet 😉
Loonsounds what you are planning is tremendously valuable and rewarding but be prepared for a lot of heartbreak too: these kids can be very damaged indeed and are almost all very challenging. Two friends of mine have done this for many years, and even with all their experience it’s with mixed success. One has even had to deal with a suicide (the girl was already into drugs when she arrived). I wish you strength and faith for the task ahead.
mostly ditto, Elsa.
but i’ve got mars mercury in aqua 11th and jup rising.
this horse keeps running…. and running….
i’m not exactly sure what i was put here to do, but i think it has to do with learning and teaching cross-culturally.
i also feel i might be able to communicate “non-traditionally” due the 12th h. pisces sun/asc/jup. i don’t know if i want to do that, though.
then there’s my moon/chiron/venus in 1st H aries. might be some healing or using my courage to heal. i think i am missing this key. i don’t know what to do with my aries stellium. i just can’t figure out which animal it is.
hopefully, life will give me enought time and insight to figure it out.
“I write all the time. I have to express / communicate or the energy backs up on me. I exercise for the same reason. If I don’t I’ve got big trouble. The energy backs up on me and I get.. crazy. I feel a lot of angst”
wow, that sounds like me!
I have MC in Sag conj Neptune. LOL, I have no idea.
I have always known I would be an artist and thats what I am- over the yrs it has evolved and now I am looking forward to having my characters/brand come to life soon.
People always told me my art makes them smile- so I guess I am here to put a smile on everyones face! I remember when I got married and my husband’s mother said to me ” oh great now you can stop working.” First of all his salary cannot sustain us but second of all I told her ” I will never stop working- its who I am !”
I don’t think artists of any kind can ever stop doing what they do- its like eating! Without it you will die!
Desperately seeking my life purpose, the angst is eating me alive!
I always thought that I was supposed to be an artist, to volunteer/help when I could, to work with animals, and to love the people in my life, and treat them with respect – and receive that in return. I was naturally determined, but for the most part, not in a competitive way – just loving to try new things, learn and have fun. I wanted to partner with someone fun and stable, who would understand if I was up most of the night painting, and be good to me and my family (no bad boys). I also wanted to dance, and to travel, but not live out of a suitcase. When I was nineteen, I also talked to my mother about taking in foster children.
Exercise used to help me, too, but I’ve had health problems, and the last time I tried, my hip bothered me, and sent shooting pains up my back again, with it threatening to go out on me. I’ve always taken responsibility for my energy, and sorted myself out, it just isn’t that simple right now, for me.
“ha ha ha, I cannot sign into my blog at the moment… left a comment like one of you guys and it went straight into the spam filter.. ::snort::”
that made me laugh. 🙂
Be in nature, find kindred spirits, and share my artistic creativity with the world. I’m falling down on all three these days. I need to start paying attention.
Jilly, I always saw writing like a wheel, you have to have ‘down/reflection’ time between writing periods. I definitely think you’re a poet as well 🙂
Elsa post #21, how humbling, lol!
I get the part about being here to nuture and care for my kids (and learn how not to suffocate them). Other than that, I’m not exactly sure,
Angie
Maybe I am here to ask questions.
Sometimes to ask questions which makes you feel uncomfortable and awkward. And something else, which is still hiding!
who am i kidding. i have no idea what i’m here for.
but i’m STAYING dammit! 😀