Since Saturn went into Scorpio a common theme in my consultations has emerged. People are realizing they’re going to have to something they really don’t want to do. I know this is true for me.
There are numerous things I am doing now that I wished to avoid doing, for years some cases. I am now plodding through all this disgusting stuff as I watch others come to grips with the fact, they’re going to have to break down and rebuild the structure their lives, if not themselves at this time.
I am fortunate in that I have a lot of Capricorn in my chart (Saturn) and a packed 8th house (Scorpio). I also vividly recall Saturn’s transit through Scorpio, twenty-nine years ago so I know what this requires.
There are times in life when you can airbrush the ugly away, but this isn’t one of them. The transcript of workshop on Saturn in Scorpio can help.
Do you feel pressure to dig deep inside, to find previously untapped resources?
I have a Capricorn friend who went through a divorce, lost both parents and had her kids leave home all within the past two years. She told me she knows what to do with the second half of her life. I don’t have any Capricorn. I don’t know what I need to do. Most of my concerns seem out of my orb of control just now.
Oh yes, and it feels awful.
”I don’t know what I need to do. Most of my concerns seem out of my orb of control just now.” This is exactly how i feel now.
Yes!
How true this is!
amen, i have to laugh, i just wrote this big ol email, in a nutshell, yes! elsa and satori both hit on the root of things this morning. this site has been a rock for me at this time of change, my mercury is in capricorn, 11th house. i am aware of pluto hanging out there, it’s been hard yet healing at the same time. i’m a sagg, my cup is full, full of what, god knows, but it’s always full,lol.
I have been doing this. I broke down…the transition has not been easy psychologically. I lost who I thought was the love of my life to someone who tried to compete with me (Aries) and by doing so turned him against me. It has been absolute amputation. From ecstasy to despair. I have had to work on my spirit, body and soul. Making progress but, no did not want to have to go through any of this….but I must.
I’m coming to realize there are lots of dark things involving others that I have to accept that I easily avoided previously. Just because it’s not mine does not mean I do not have to come to terms with it. 6th/8th house transit.
It feels like a loss of innocence while being asked to put my arms in the blood and guts.
”I don’t know what I need to do. Most of my concerns seem out of my orb of control just now.”
“This is exactly how i feel now.”
Yup. I truly do not think I am going to make it with regards to doing things I don’t want to do, all alone with no support and no clue. And time is fucking ticking to the point of no return at the end of next month. And I can’t handle it or move that fast for anything.
5 years ago, when Pluto entered Cap, it went into direct opposition with my sun WHILE I was having my Saturn return in my 2nd (thankfully, conjunct my NN) So, it was a time of 180′ transformation and all the change and upheaval. Although as bad as it sounds to have all that occur, it was positive as I ended LOTS of old bad habits and reinvented my persona. But with Saturn in Scorpio, I’m seeing EVERYBODY around me, especially with heavy scorpio aspects (opp/conj/square)having this time of their lives. Breakdown in marriages/careers/day-to-day life, transform, push forward. I don’t think it is a bad thing. Stagnation is bad. Change can be very good if you allow it to be naturally and not try to thwart it. We have no control over our circumstances–just our reaction to them. 😀
Big hug (((((jenfullmoon)))))
~sending love and strength and support~
Welcome back, Strawberry Fields. 🙂
Hi SF!!
t.Pluto on my Moon–I’m preparing for death. I figure if I can squeeze a wee bit of grieving every day I’m not going to get creamed emotionally when the time comes to say goodbye.
I have Saturn in 8th natally, aspects everything in my chart except my Nodes. This is basically my MO.
Yup.
Right now Saturn’s not aspecting much of my chart in any way (it’s a nice break!), but in the absence of that I’ve started paying more attention to the transiting Nodes. South Node’s in my 11th. I might have to do some letting go when it comes to friendships and goals. Ugh.
yes, and I feel silent about it. (Saturn in Scorp in the bottom of the fourth).
Yes, I am 31 weeks pregnant and really want a homebirth. I have the birth pool that I hope to be having my son in, and a midwife and an ob on backup just in case I have to go to the hospital. Saturn is on my ascendant in Scorpio along with my natal Pluto in Scorpio, I hope that this will be a transforming experience and I make it out alive.
(((((JB))))))
You’ll do great! 🙂
You know I can relate to this. Thus far Saturn’s in Scorpio is transiting my 11th house and it is conjunct with my natal Jupiter in Scorpio and square my natal Mercury and Venus. I’m foresee a relationship ending (dont want to end it but I know it is not for me) and I feel as if I am being pushed to get serious about what I want out of life. This is all occurring right after my Saturn Return which helped me understand who I am and what I do not want. I also have Pluto transiting my 2nd house right now and I must be honest I feel like a mess. I really do feel like my life has been leveled like an imploded building, but I know that these energies are all working together to get me to do the deep work of being true to myself.
And no…I don’t want to deal with these things, but I really don’t have any choice. I would say I feel somewhat somber, but Saturn gives rewards to those that do the hard work so let the hard work begin.
Oh! and Jupiter turns direct tomorrow and its my chart ruler. I am hoping that will give me the boost to really tackle things head on.
@deepdarkwaters
Good luck with Jupiter coming back around in your chart! Although I doubt you’ll need it as it will help you tremendously!
This is true for me
(((Kashmiri)))and others. It’s really tough. Heart breaking stuff for most of us it seems. Maybe we can console ourselves with knowing we CAN do this, and know that we will come out stronger for it.
As for JB, that is a happy circumstance! Best of luck and as Elsa says, “you will do great”, when she says that…I believe it! : )
I do have to dig. I don’t enjoy having to. I tend to be private and prideful, and becking that trend has opened some doors for me. I too have a bit of Cap and Scorpio in Saturn natally, so I know what I must do, however I don’t want to do it all that has negative results, sometimes.
Check out elsa’s vlog on this subject:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=l9FuBRKKEwE
I feel like I need to find my home and stabilize myself. No more screwing around.
@wonderingheights
Thanks…any support at all is deeply appreciated.
GTO, hit it right on the target in this neck of the woods. Haven’t a clue what’s within the next chapter of Life. “Chopping wood carrying water!”
With Saturn holding hands with Scorpio for many years to come, anything but easy will test our buttons once again.
Peace & Love
Yes. I am back in school for the first time in lo these many years (which is why I haven’t been posting here at all- still figuring out how to budget my time).
We are doing group projects. I somehow keep ending up the leader because nobody else is coming forward to do it. I really don’t like being the de facto leader and being responsible for getting everyone together and organizing our work. But if no one takes charge the project won’t get finished, so if I don’t see you doing it I will. School involves deadlines, people.
I REALLY hope this isn’t a two year trend :).
Elsa you nailed it again girl! I have noticed this theme among my friends,family and self.It’s practically a flashing neon sign right now.So much pressure out there.
Dead on. It feels like self surgery.
The things I am doing that I don’t want to do are things I did 6 months ago with ease and little thought. I don’t want to do most of what I am doing anymore. And I feel like I am working twice as hard because of it. I spent years building something that I have little interest in now. And the people are a hundred times more difficult. There seems to always be some stupid problem I have to work around now. A little thing that someone is turning into a 3 ring circus. Makes me so frustrated. I am looking at the ‘whatever’ thinking…why are you making this so hard… and they keep pressing on me and pressing on me. It’s been very difficult not to tell some people to go pound salt. This would make it worse. And, I know its a test. Every day seems like another test….will I pass, will I fail? I can only try harder each day to do the best I can…. Maybe I will fail. If I do if won’t be because I didn’t try.
Wow, that was 9 months ago and I am still doing all the things I don’t want to do day in and day out. Still working harder than I ever have in my life. Still doing the things for people that I don’t want to do. Amazing to read something you wrote 9 months earlier to see nothing has changed. Gosh, I hope I am doing the right thing by continuing on!
Every day still feels like a test. I am aware though. I am watching myself. I am trying desperately to direct energy appropriately. I am exhausted.
I am moving from my home of 13 years this winter. There is so much stuff to sort and pack. I dread doing this because I’m ADD and it takes me forever. My nephew spent a day with me last month helping me to get started. Having a setback due to pain issues:( I’m not expecting the next few months to be easy.
uhm, yeah, close all my credit cards and reconsider my relationship to $
graduating and getting a job didn’t fix my problems. it meant i stopped getting student loan $ and instead have to start paying it back.
(was in my second house, now crossed into the third.)