gogol said
Us mars in third people can talk others to death??... But coming to think of it, I'd really prefer mars in a cardinal sign than Gemini. It feels so scattered there!
Lol that's very true. I can annoy people with my seemingly never ending energy to communicate.
I have Mars in Gemini, too. When I'm mad, I will research the heck out of whatever is making me mad to prove a point and if I'm feeling hurt along with angry, like you, I will cry. That tends to make me even angrier. My anger is usually a flash in the pan. I have my little fit and then I move on quickly and I don't hold a grudge but I think that's my Aries sun. My moon in Scorpio is not allowed to plot revenge.
Mars in Aries H9.
Mars trine Uranus/Jupiter in Sag H4
Mars trine Asc in Leo
Mars square Pallas Athene H6
Mars contra-parallel Pluto
If I feel I'm being treated unjustly, I literally explode with rage. Usually, it's after seething about it for days or weeks. I will drop hints at first (Libra Pluto), and try to come up with strategies to create a win-win scenario (Pallas). I try to look at everything objectively to make sure I'm not just being paranoid (pluto) and if none of this works, I explode in an extreme way. At first, I think about subtle ways to destroy the person, but I can't allow myself to be too evil (Sag UR/Jup), so I end up exploding if I cannot diffuse my anger in other ways.
Eta:I'm working on it. T. Pluto is square my Mars atm. I'm trying to figure out other ways to release anger.
gogol said
Us mars in third people can talk others to death??... But coming to think of it, I'd really prefer mars in a cardinal sign than Gemini. It feels so scattered there!
even though I am a Gemini, when Mars tours Gemini, even I can't take it
Rx Mars in Leo. If I get angry I get ill and then depressed. I find it impossible to express anger in any normal way. If things get really bad I'll kick the door and snap at whoever gets in my way. But I have to be really stressed for it to overflow like that. When it does, I don't feel better, it just seems to come right back at me and cause me physical pain. And then I get even more depressed. Mostly I try to avoid anything that might make me angry - Mars is square Neptune so I have little defence against any kind of attack. Marsy people freak me out, to be perfectly honest.
Goldie said
Although, I feel like my 12th house Pluto causes a lot of reactionary mischief. It squares my Mercury and Jupiter, and I can get very mouthy when I am upset. I read in a printout of my chart once that Pluto in the 12th can be like a frightening iceberg in my subconscious that you don't want to crack open the hull of the boat passing over it. I do feel like at times there is this hidden dominating force inside of me that tries to assert itself in different situations...not like a split personality, just like...I don't know, something buried.
Ooo. very similar to my mercury conjunct mars in aries 12th opposite pluto. reactionary mischief, i like that description. the iceberg analogy is a nice touch too. that reminds me of Freud's mental iceberg, where the subconcious is a deep well. it eats all of the fear, pain, shame, spiteful retaliation. like a dormant volcano, it doesn't happen often, but when it erupts it unleashes some hell on earth. got to have a healthy energetic or creative release to quelch who should stay buried. whew.