BP I've read your comments about your mother. I really feel for you and your sister. You really are your own person. I am too. Uranus saves the day, haha!
That T-square is formidable, yikes. My mother has both Mercury/Uranus and Mercury/Neptune as well.
I am making the connection between my own lack of drive and this. I'm finding it difficult to finish my BFA and have to hide this from most of my family. It sets my mother off. 'You should quit, don't finish, walk away, this isn't for you, this is a sign you should be doing something else' etc
I'm 34 and am just starting to feel the sadness all over again, of feeling completely unsupported. I have been on my own since 16 so it's weird to have these feelings come back up. This is Pluto transit to Moon/IC, I guess. I need to gain my own sense of security, from inside myself if I want to develop confidence.
Esther my father --I am very close to him. He has Neptune in 7th sextile Venus, which I think explains a lot, he just came from that generation--the child-rearing was considered the womens' domain and what she said went, because women know best. He has always idealized my mother. Venus/Neptune!
He has a Fixed Grand Cross, and Saturn in 10th/Scorpio opposing Moon. He is alright with an authoritarian female running the house.
As for siblings, my brother is so furious at me for not continuing the charade of happy family. Plus he doesn't want to deal, and that was my job.. it destablizes him for me to step out of my role. Makes me sad.
((((omie)))) Protect your heart. It's yours, for life.
Kash, that's just it. Completely unsupported.
My brother takes the same line as my mom. Everything I'm doing is a bad idea is a mistake. I feel like they just want me to roll over and die. The only way I can accomplish anything is to shut them out, and be like the little red hen, but it sure is lonesome.
Uranus does save the day for me too. Sun square.
BP you write very well, I would love to read your book.
Esther, my parents were split, and then my father died. He stayed out of it. He was a very neptunian sort, and avoided my mom at all costs.
oh thank you for the hugs Kashmiri. Right back at you. ((((((Kashmiri)))))
That really helps. I didn't see that post until I just did the other one.
thank you so much!