I reached out last night to an agency that helps families host orphans. These children would be from the Ukraine.

I didn't sleep well last night and am wondering "why I am doing this to myself." 

I feel strongly moved to do it, am praying about it. And have always (always) wanted to adopt a child. I don't know that I would adopt. We only would have a commitment to host for a period over the summer. 

I feel like there's a lot stacked against me - not that I wouldn't qualify (I do) but that I'm a single mom, already strapped financially, inflation is what it is. And I have a daughter who struggles. She is alone a lot (homeschooled now). And I worry she would feel more abandoned, etc. There are so many dynamics and unknowns and we've both been through a lot.

I feel like I should honor us. My situation.

Yet there is this part of me that I can't quiet, that "woke up" and won't go back to sleep. This is my path. Even though I do everything for my daughter, when I think about my path in this world, this feel like it is right. 

Is there astrology that would support this - meaning my understanding of why this is so strong in me? Is it simply a rescuer part of me?