Hi Elsa!

I have natal 12th House Mars in Cancer (exactly conjunct Venus in Cancer). I decided a few months ago, knowing that Mars in Cancer was coming around again, to do alot of "counting to 20" before answering people, being very very calm and deliberately polite in my speech when antagonized, very silent at other times and very aware of attempts to gaslight me. If I did not do this, there have benseveral incidences where I know I wuld have been accused of being violent or aggressive and then punished. I am intentionally avoiding being locked up in a jail or prison against my will or being officially labeed (diagnosed?) as mentally ill and put on medications or locked away gainst my will. Now all this seems EXTREME, I know, but I also becamse aware this year that whenever Mars in Cancer has retrograde in my 12th in prior years, there were harsh consequences  despite the fact that i was antagonized and done injustice. I did always manage to avoid any such consequences as jail, prison, hospitalization or mental health hspitalization - because someone with power or position would come to my aid and advocate for me, so that it became known that my Martian response was not done in a vacuum. 

Now, that I am older and I tell myself that "this, too, shall pass", breathe and either wait it out, move on or escape through a circuitous route around the offending person or situation. Back in AUgust, I experienced two women setting me up to be physically cornered and verbally assaulted for 20 minutes by two other women......with physical lunges at me and an attempt to enlist an armed security guard to assist them. I audio recorded the entire encounter and listened alot and repeatedly, calmly, pointed out their violent behavior. They admitted they were being violent. I later sent copies of the tape to several key people. It protected my name and reputation, at a time when it is vital to do so because I have some 4th house home and family goals.

Outside of this, well I want to be MARRIED. Really want to be married. I am ready to say YES without conditions to any eligible men but I don't see anny. I am going out to concerts and events concerning things I like, but nothing has happened. I go, I enjoy the event, schmooze (I am very good in social settings, even though I am an introvert), and try to connect. And I am a goodlooking and sexy, intelligent, caring, woman.  I wonder why I am alone.

(I did have for many years, the problem of men wanting secret sex connections, trying to hide me from family and friends nd other 12th house  Venus/Mars in 12th issues). My lifelong pattern since I was 12 years old is that unless I agree to secret non-committed sexual encounters that only benefit the male, men don't want to be with me...don't want to marry me.....only want to be my "friend". But I think there is a husband out there for me.

That is what is happening with Mars in Cancer for me right now.

You betcha! I am unstoppable. SERIOUS. Heh heh, and this intentionality formed under my recent Saturn Return, too. I am going to expand my household, make the money needed to do so and maintain it, find that good man - surely there's a man out there who like golf, art, jazz, country music, painting, books, writing, volunteering or other stuff!! And I live in a town with a major military base city with Navy, Marines and Army men. There must be a good solid man who wants a good solid woman. 

Now I've had enough break. I must get back to doing my work from home that I intend to bring income to me. But I never feel I have wasted time online when I come to this website and read or contribute to threads and articles.