I don't have much to say. After all, it's better that you ask Elsa for a reading and/or a an expert counselor. Good luck!

Can't afford an astrological reading. I am in therapy for anxiety and depression issues though.

anonymoushermit said
One of my family members has six (seven if you count Chiron) retrograde planets, and his life after age 32 was hard! He's one of the more elderly ones, and he's 76 now. So retrograde planets are extremely karmic, I agree!

  

Maybe it was the period after his saturn return. I didn't have my saturn return yet, that's why I'm trying to understand the karmic energies behind my retrograde planets before I hit 26 or 27.

D. I don't believe in karma

f.) I need $10!

Natal Saturn in the 2 house, I definitely need to learn to limit my spending habits... 

I have Mercury and Venus retrograde, the last one is my chart ruler. Oh, man, I do love to buy things... I can say I spend more than I earn... I'm a victim of shopping therapy and I realize it's absurd what I'm doing but can't stop... owing things gives me somehow a sense of "being someone" while my stellium in the 12 house (karmic house) constantly reminds me being selfless is the way... I feel torn apart between these two personas: the adornments lover (Leo Venus) and a selfless way of being (Mercury R, Sun and Moon in the 12). 

I can't decide which of these two is/ could or should be the real me (Saturn in Libra).

as i get older, its very good.

but when i was a child, and a teenager, it was awful. like i had to go through fires of hell or something, living through Dante's journey and i needed a Virgil to guide me through 9 levels of hell.