Pisces energy puts me to sleep. I have wanted to sleep for the last 48 hours and in fact may go to bed when I am finished catching up on all the goings on ... or maybe I will just go back to sleep right now. LOL
When I am running at 1000 all I have to do is ask my husband to sit still... then I sit by him and hold his hand or his arm.... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ that's all it takes.
This moon... fagetaboutit!!! ZZZZZZZ I have been snoring though the whole thing.
@soup how handy! My husband can go to sleep, anywhere, instantly. I'm jealous of both of you.
I'm really enjoying the vibes. But I think I may be in the minority. Lots of downloads and telepathy.
I have been feeling ethereal or something.
I wonder…and not to take anything away from my husband, but he is traveling so I have a bit more arms length. In the past, this would have meant something different. But now it’s much more contained- in relative terms…which are my terms.
And so, I can immerse myself in Piscian things. That is my 7H.
Today I woke up and have this realization that the next six months are merely a glimpse of what I am capable of achieving.
This is a brutal lunar eclipse for me. Today is my birthday, and it'll be an interesting solar return for sure...
I am putting more heart into my intent, I'll at least say that.
@jana Thank you so much jana!
It has been an interesting birthday. I had an awesome workout, and received some gifts. But at the same time, someone dear to me died...
This is going to be quite a year with this lunar eclipse...At least my career is stable.
@salamander happy birthday and welcome back! I'm sorry for your loss. I hope this will be a good year for you!
@elsa Thank you Elsa.
I had to endure so much the last couple of years...
That loss was going to happen because one of my instructors went from chemo to hospice, I was preparing myself for it, I didn't expect it at 1 AM on my birthday though.
But I see what kind of lifetime support exists being part of a karate group for years...
@salamander How traumatic. I'm so sorry. I hope you find some meaning in this, eventually.
I think I will find meaning in it. My instructor retired from his day job, but then when he got to use his Medicare, he found out about colon cancer, and things went downhill fast. The last time I met him was at a holiday party dealing with chemo. Then I heard he went to hospice.
I'll see if I can attend his funeral, it'll be 3 hours away at a beach.
But I'm making sure to not let frustration get the better of me, I sometimes think that's the cause of his colon cancer...
I have a hammer he designed for me during the pandemic. It's specifically to condition the tendons. That is a memento I have of him.
I'll also never forget his circle block lesson on my first day of karate in 2009...And his adherence to tradition.
I've been through a lot since 2020. And I mean a lot.
I had a near-death experience in 2020 where incompetent hospital staff severely mistreated me. After reviewing my medical records, it turned out it was an emergency involving my pancreas. I miraculously survived the neglect. But now I have to work with a psychologist on a report to remove a major mental misdiagnosis that damaged my family life, my career and my healthcare. Psychologically it's a solid report. The only thing left is for her to fix the dates of the tests.
I have produced above-average results for a store in terms of detecting and stopping theft. But it required a lot of sacrifice to create a climate of objectivity and to crack down on sleaze. That store ended up being better than the NSA on spotting a bad hire, because of my values!
@salamander It sounds like he had a big impact on you...it also sounds as if you carry his legacy forward.
@elsa Yes, he did have a big impact on me. He gave me dignity during a vulnerable moment in 2009, and he did something meaningful for the group during the pandemic by making traditional hammers for training.
Karate instructors have a responsibility of transmitting traditions and practices to others. So it comes naturally to carry his legacy forward...
And I'm not letting drama bother me. There are hobbies worth enjoying...
Yesterday was my deceased daughter in laws birthday. I had to watch her daughter suffer. I hate life on some days. My poor girl misses her mother so much. My son... good lord. What a nightmare. I am really trying to stop typing bad news. This is even worse than bad news. It's just stuff that is too heart wrenching to believe. I feel her loss. It's a tremendous loss. But my son, his daughter and her mom ... they look like walking death some days. I don't know how to make such a thing better.
Her 45th birthday. Can you imagine? They were married for 13 years before they decided to have my Saggie girl. They waited to do it right. They wanted to grow up together first. They bought a house. They finished school/training. They saved money. They went step by step. Planning.
She's gone.
It will be a year November 13th.
My granddaughter says she sleeps so she can see her. I can't hardly type this. She said her dad (my son) goes in the bathroom and cries. (he has a Pisces moon) She said he doesn't know she can hear him. My other son is hollow watching his brother suffer.
This full moon was hard on my kids.... and I can't do a thing to correct it, fix it, make it better. I just stand here useless. I would gladly hand over my life it that would make them better. A life for their lives.
My deceased DIL's mom lost her husband so her dad died right after she did.... right behind her. Her mom (who lost a daughter and a husband at almost the same time) gave my son and my granddaughter a house in an adorable little town. She just gave it to them. (she also has stage 4 Lymphoma) How can this many things be happening to my family? How are this many people dying so close together?
I get these random texts from all of them at different times of the day and night... sometimes the girls are at school. Sons and Cap DIL at work... they just say... I love you.
I didn't type this for sympathy. This is just the place to discuss the Pisces full moon eclipse. I am so grateful to have a space to release this. Now it's time for me to straighten up and eat something, exercise, and get busy with the day.... I have to pretend none of it is happening in front of my family. I cannot let them see weakness.
@elsa Thank you so much for your kindness and support E. You held me up when I was flat on the floor. I have no idea how I will ever repay you for the kindness.
