I was feeling the same way three years ago. Jupiter and Saturn were at 28 - 29 Capricorn. They were exactly square my Aries rising.
Things eased up after they went into Aquarius, and I dropped the dead end job I was in.
I want out of this retail job really badly. But just like three years ago, a biggie is squaring my Rising. This feels more painful. It's like I'm paying for the choice I made 30 years ago: family vs career. I picked family. I have no one to blame but myself for being 50 something and not being where I want professionally. Retail is sucking the life out of me. If it wasn't for the family, I'd walk out of there last night. Heck, I almost did last night.
The reality is I'm not traveling an hour plus for any job, and the available jobs in the area aren't great. So here I am.
I have to pull myself together and get something started on the side so I can get out of retail and get on with my life.
What brought this on, you ask? I'm working 40 hours between NYE and January 3. There's no consideration for me and what I may be doing. I'm technically part time. I feel like throwing their schedule at them, but there's bills to pay...
I feel for ya LL. Starting side gig is a sound plan. Im hanging onto my job like grim death even though Id rather not, because the outlook on my career prospects are dismal once this one is finally cut. Best of luck for the Pluto in Aquarius transition.
Thanks Jana! Wishing you well too. I'm glad I got all that out. It's nagged at me all year.
I wanted to share something practical you can do when feeling moments of intense stuckness and frustration (this currently seems to be a theme with Pluto in Cap and may be linked to feeling disempowered, when in truth we are not, we can and are in a process of discovering our own power, however the past/history is a strong influence right now, and bringing up deep feelings/memories of disempowerment which get layered onto current circumstances).
Anyway, theory aside, the technique is to consciously consider things you are grateful for in those difficult moments. Say it in your head or out loud, I'm really thankful/grateful for x. This process acts to diffuse the hortible stuck feelings in the moment. It can be anything big or small, like a warming cup of coffee, the fact that it's not raining, that you shared a smile with someone. It will bring your awareness very directly to the present moment, rather than your thoughts spiralling out into doom laden projections of the future.
You mentioned that you had committed your heart to your family for many years, but despite creating a family, feel unworthy currently. I think you could also try reframing what you have achieved in that area of the heart and using the gratitude technique regarding details about your family/family life to boost your self confidence.
This way, with practice, you will strengthen your heart's resonance and can carry this into the very difficult worldly situations you are facing, like working the 40hrs in that period. It will help protect you from doubt and misgiving which is a symptom of too much exposure to heart-less environments and sadly people, such as at work.
@sophiab Right now the only things that are getting me through are a possible interview (owner contacted me directly) and my kids coming after Christmas. I'll be alone, but I have the dogs to snuggle with. 😊
Mr. Cap is coming on the 26th, and Baby Scorp is down here for college (finally) after the New Year.
At least I have them. Some people have no one at all. I don't know how they manage life tbh.
Pluto reaches 29* tomorrow, Tuesday. We then have until 20/21st January when it enters Aqua. I have already been feeling Aqua energy entering for a week or so, but the Cap energy is simultaneously very strong and quite consuming (particularly on a bodily level). But it's worth keeping feelers out for Aqua energy which will become stronger with the 29* doorway.
An image I have had is of a deep sea diver who has been exploring at the bottom of the ocean where it is darkest and a strange reality, but is now slowly ascending and releasing the experience. The passage upwards must be made very gradually to avoid getting "the bends", in other words, what has been experienced at the bottom must be integrated. The diver knows that light is gradually increasing, but he/she is still within the murky depths. But it's important to know we are currently RISING up and out.
@sophiab I've also been feeling less confined, for a lack of better word, in the last couple of days. Curious if Neptune at 29d Pisces will have similar effect this summer.
@placeboo It is interesting to consider that gateway, 29* Pisces. I can recall Chiron passing through, it was quite trippy. I think 29 Pisces can feel quite devastating, but then the impetus of Aries will also be present. What are your thoughts on it? I believe Neptune hangs out there quite a while, is there a station at 29?
@sophiab It's stays at 29d for 4 months, from May 3rd till September. That's a long time. Pluto shifts gears faster. I watched a couple of 2024 predictions, I did not care so much about politics and economy and was scanning for weather and quakes mostly. One can say floods and wildfires happen every year, you do not need to be a psychic to predict that, but the skill is in predicting the exact place. Like they see flood in London. Still heat and fire predictions were too common for such a heavy Pisces year.
@sophiab I just came across a comment stating that anaretic degree is removing the power and identity of the sign and using the energy of the PREVIOUS sign to accomplish that job. It fits the dwads arrangement within the sign. It caught my attention because it is exactly what is happening in politics in my country right now with Pluto entering the last degree of Capricorn.
@placeboo Less confinement, yes, this describes it well. We have Mercury in Cap and soon the Sun, so it's possible the transition will take a while as they may amplify the Saturn vibes.
@sophiab That's a great analogy. I felt like that this past March. Also January 2021. Jupiter, Saturn, now Pluto into Aquarius. Up ever so slowly...but out 😊
