Pluto in the 10th here, and my career is very phoenix-like. I don't just get another job, I reinvent myself every time.

Mars transiting in the 10th, conjuncting my Pluto has given me the impetus to reinvent myself once again.

@BP That's why I had to back off astrology a couple of years ago, for awhile. It got to the point that I was dissecting my chart mentally, as I was going about my day. I would despair about one piece of it. I keep forgetting that free will has to come into play here.

@Windsaloft That's what I'd like it to do.

@eva I don't have Saturn in the 10th except by transit. Pluto is there natally

@Kathy That's kind of the way it is for me. When people suggest I look for another job in my line of work, it's like "meh". I don't want a repeat. And like you, Mars has entered my 10th. It's got a ways to go before it hits Pluto.

I've been thinking about this. Growing up, I didn't want a small existence. I wanted to do something big. And the kind of people I looked up to as role models were transformative in their career fields--Marie Curie, Dr. Ben Carson, Dr. Vivien Thomas and Dr. Alfred Blalock.

@eva My family told me, growing up, that I have potential. I think they just don't want to see that wasted. Coworkers have done this, too. A few years ago one told me that if she became my boss, she would fire me in order to force me to do something with my life. O_O (I have the NN in the 10th, too, so the idea of becoming a professional in any way is scary to me. Foreign. Maybe that's why people feel compelled to give me a push. LOL) My Pluto is tied to the MC, the NN, and the sun.

Even my birth father (who was dirt-poor and had a 10th-grade education) told me he expected me to do something big. He sensed something, too.

I'm afraid to move forward, though, because I have failed before and I don't forget that.

Hi blue rose

Sorry, there's nothing in your original post AT ALL about saturn transiting the tenth. I think I was just pulling Saturn because it's Capricorn.

Pluto in the tenth -- in any house -- does not kill anything because that's impossible. It widens the field between birth and death. Pluto 10 Cap is going to teach you to break down ( internally, symbolically) structures that do not suit your essential will.

If you don't know what to do with yourself right now then you're not going to do anything. The problem is that your expressed identity - to the public -- has to be fully your own or you're just going to walk around being a ball of Potential because public identity is involved. You are going to be what you WANT to be and not one thing else.

So...what I would do if I were you is this.

Go somewhere silent and -- just as an exercise -- one by one give everybody's expectations back to them. Back to your boss, back to your father -- whatever they've told you, just give it back. I mean you can recall it, but for that several moments -- just give *all those expectations back.*

Now do nothing. For a little while, sitting there, just wait.

Then ask yourself what *you* want to do.

That's gonna be your issue right there. If you don't see it right away, stop and try it again later. Because as long as you listen to other people about your potential the stronger your will is going to be to resist other peoples' insistence on mapping your identity. What you want to do, what you want to be, how you want to be seen -- that's YOUR domain and if you allow other people in it, internally you'll rebel.

Try it. It'll only take a couple minutes.

@blue rose - It might be Pluto in the 10th that makes you feel this sense of responsibility and pressure in regard to your career. Also every one else's big expectations.

BP is right, though, you have free will, it's up to you. Best of luck!

@eva That's a good idea. I think I've done something like that once before. I walked through the woods one day. A friend had asked some of us to be a part of her vision, and as I mulled this over in the woods, I thought--no. I want my OWN vision. I didn't want to be part of someone else's vision.

I think that's why I've been digging in my heels and staying at my current job for 12 years. Everyone else tells me what they think I should do. But *I* don't know what I should do! Might be time to go walk in the woods again.