I want my OWN vision. I didn't want to be part of someone else's vision.

I think that's why I've been digging in my heels and staying at my current job for 12 years. Everyone else tells me what they think I should do. But *I* don't know what I should do! Might be time to go walk in the woods again.

Cool. Remember with Capricorn, it's hard to get "vision" and easier to get "goal". This is just language in your head to take you to the same place. But regardless -- Pluto/Sat....has its OWN agenda. NOBODY elses.

Another suggestion: just think of what you want to do next. Capricorn is suspicious of "something big". How about the next thing you can plot out accomplishing? That makes more sense to Saturn.

I mean Saturn just looks at these sort of nebulous expectations and says,listen. something big? YOU do it your way. I'LL do it mine.

I also want you to note that at your job which is apparently mediocre, where you have stayed for 12 years ( Saturn) -- you have the entire organization astounded by your *internal power and potential* (pluto). Check it.

I have t.Pluto in the 10 , in Cap conjunt my MC ( and south node/bml) blah but I looked at it very positively like a powerhouse in my 10th.It has yet to manifest but I now have my own website and print selling site and that's a whole lot more than I had before ! Putting myself out there in a huge way which makes me so nervous but I hope to transform through it

To not be so afraid to be hurt, to be ignored,to not be good enough,to try not to be so afraid I'll be persecuted for being different,to try like hell to fully claim the power I had in my past lives ,through my Cancer values rather than my Capricorn ones.It's also square a whole lotta other stuff in my chart,so I have some changes to go through-- but I just hope they will be worth it.I want to be successful ( and secure my moon NEEDS secure,like a flower needs rain) like anyone else My best wishes for you miss Blue Rose <3 We have the same sun/moon combo too ! That much more interesting to see the different ways we look at and experience things!

@Josephine WORD. The other day I was hanging out at a friend's house and at some point during the visit, he decided to have us look at better-paying careers online (jobs that have a future, that sort of thing). He also talked to me about maybe getting a house and some tenants. At some point, he made the comment, "If you want to continue to live a mediocre life..."

it didn't bother me that much, but it has sort of floated around in my brain. I think THAT is the issue I'm having. Others KNOW I can do better, and try to push me in that direction--or did. Most of them dropped off during my SR.

It's not that I WANT to live a mediocre life, I just never really realized that I'd allowed that to happen. Or that people view me this way. I used to wonder how anyone could fall into a boring existence, or stay at a dead-end job. Hmm.

@OSW, that's interesting that it scares you to put yourself out into the world. It scares me too!! I tried running an online shop a couple of years ago and it never took off. While I closed it, I thought about why I got no sales and realized...people aren't just going to find the shop and buy stuff. I have to put myself OUT THERE. Advertise. Talk to people. Work the business. Learn how to make it better, etc. etc. I can't just set up a shop and leave.

@eva That's true. Saturn likes to build. I have my sun in the 10th as well. Big vision and stuff like that, leaves me cold. I don't know what to do with that.

You gave me a lot to think about. "Internal power and control"...that's interesting. People have come and gone from that job--ALL of them....and yet I'm still there.

This post here, is absolutely true:

"If you don't know what to do with yourself right now then you're not going to do anything. The problem is that your expressed identity - to the public -- has to be fully your own or you're just going to walk around being a ball of Potential because public identity is involved. You are going to be what you WANT to be and not one thing else.

"I have an amazing ability to dig in my heels and refuse to move forward if others' visions for me leave me cold (90% of the time, they do. It's THEIR view of the future for me, not mine.) Hmm.

Thank you, you've all given me a lot to think about.

Pluto in Capricorn exposes dissatisfied workers, meaningless career paths at best and mindless drones at worst.

Pluto in 10th exposes the consequences of career pursued for the prestige alone.

It was the death of mine.
Utterly and totally.

Wow, Elsa.