I can open carry a gun the problem is it is someone's husband that I don't want anything to do with. He knows what time I normally get home so that he stops in the road to talk to me when I'm at the mailbox. Just shoot me. I don't want any part of him or anything like that. I'm stuck with him and his wife, there is no getting away from them 100%. I just have to 12th house Mars avoid him as much as possible. It all started because I offered to give her something that had belonged to her grandparents because I'm sentimental. I'm just sick of being me lately. I was trying to be generous.... my bad.
My interpretation of Pluto in the 4th:
The 4th house signifies the space you occupy in the world. And by extension, the power and control you hold. It also is related to your emotions and emotional health - issues directly related to how welcome or otherwise you feel in the world. When an outer planet transits the 4th house - you feel like hiding away, being private, being at home, not being too expressive or open about how you feel.
Natal Pluto in the 4th means that your emotions are always coloured with great intensity arising from an early childhood conditioning of emotional oppression. You are not naturally expressive, especially when in a situation where you don't know if you can trust anybody. You wait and watch before expressing your emotions and letting your guard down. You are emotionally hesitant and careful. This creates pent-up and intense emotional storage which when allowed to come out, can be quite poetic or profound.
Because you are by default not one to occupy other people's mind space by being vocal about your feelings, when you do express yourself, you may come across as intense and significant. You may need great amount of reassurance and relationship building before you can feel safe about being expressive.
In short, your psyche and most intimate emotional self is one marred by trauma of some kind, which was inflicted early on, and to rise above that starting point will take patience and help from significant others. Perhaps you are already well on your way to doing this - and understand all this much better already.
It was a lot of things I guess twelthhouse. When I was 3 we were riding in my dad's truck and a drunk passed us in a curve and clipped the front of the truck. We chased him but he was the son of a judge so as poor people we didn't have a chance. A few days passed and when I came out of the grocery store with my mom, my dad was sitting in the truck with a black eye. He had gotten into a fight in the parking lot with the drunk.
At 4 I was very sick with the croup and had to be hospitalized.
At 5 I became paired up with a girl that would emotionally bully me and others for the next 13 years.
In your case, I am guessing that the Moon is also quite close to the IC and Pluto. When the Moon is with Pluto, dark and intense things can feel quite tasteful and attractive. You are a person who finds comfort in relationships of trust. You can test a person's trustworthiness by telling them something significant about yourself, and seeing how they react. Because, a relationship not founded on trust is something you are not interested in. Basically, you will be quite similar to a Scorpio Moon.
I also have my Moon conjunct Pluto in the 1st house - both in Scorpio.