Jilly said
Last time, I got engaged to be married.

Not sure about this time - only been less than a week thus far.  

Well a week later I can say with certainty that it has been difficult. Ugh. 

Sorry to hear that Jilly....its seems like quite a few of us have been experiencing testing times with this transit.

At the moment everything seems to be going fairly smoothly on my end (touch wood). 

Unfortunately though my mother in law who shares my 4 deg capricorn south node had a pretty bad fall at home and ended up needing surgery on her ankle, so I'm in the process of helping to arrange some in home care for her. As I'm a counsellor/social worker I'm not out of my element with this, but there might be some need to step in and make sure that my mother in law stays and bed and rests.....lol. I think her 1 deg mars in cancer might not have been too thrilled about saturn coming to oppose it from capricorn.

I am hoping she makes a speedy recovery, but I have to admit I'm a bit concerned this might impact her mobility/ quality of life. We have to see how things go though.

blue_rose said
Saturn in the 12th house: felt confused, lost, cast adrift. Nothing felt secure or certain. I basically let thing slide (unless I HAD to deal with them).

Saturn in the 1st house:  I feel more ready to tackle issues in my life head-on. 

Hello Blue Rose,

Thanks for your reply...I concur. Saturn in the 12th was extremely foggy and drift-y time for me, which was confusing and annoying. Because I do have goals and needs I want to move forward with...I just had to go through psychological/emotional purgatory before I could get access to them. I also have natal Neptune in late Sag (conj. the galactic centre) so this whole 12th H. transit of Saturn seemed pretty amped up for me. During this time I also conquered depression.

hayley said

Is this the first time you've had saturn cross your ascendant? Last time I had this transit I was 6 years old and it coincided with me starting primary school. 

Hi Hayley,

Thanks so much for your input. Well, I think the first time Saturn crossed my ASC I was about 3-4 years old, so I remember nothing! But historically, until my mid-teenage years, I was a shy and awkward kid. Used to hide behind my mothers legs, not feel confident or comfortable with myself, that kind of thing. So I understand that many of my inner struggles have always been an outgrowth of this — ie. there has been a part of myself I've shuttered in. Given that Saturn is crossing my ascendant in early February for the first time in my adult/conscious life, I see this as an opportunity to shed that old skin and begin a new, 29-year cycle that will take me right into my 60's.

I too have the conjunction of Saturn and Pluto. And because my MC is in Scorpio, anything Saturn does is done with Plutonian panache and vice versa. Depth, power, intensity...

How do I see this showing up in my life? One year ago I was laid off, depressed, and finally stopped trying to cobble together a career in my previous field in communications. Although I probably could have searched and found another such job, I was very unhappy and not being true to myself. So, despite what many perceive as dismal odds, I went back to pursuing a life as an artist. I currently teach music p/t and am gearing up to release my own material (ie. "coming out"), and am concurrently launching a company with my partner -- both activities are going well, but will require a ton of work to succeed at the level I want them to. I'm also at that critical time in a woman's 30's where having kids vs. not having them is weighing heavily on my psyche. So lots of changes in both the outer (career//direction) and inner (resolving deep-seated issues during my Saturn 11/12th H. transits). The difference, I feel, is that I have finally committed to my goals. It is oddly overwhelming and freeing at the same time. 

I have a super wide 1st house (almost 53 degrees!) so it seems that part of my karma right now is to re-shape, transform, and work at a new identity. With Pluto grinding through Cap, and now Saturn in there for the next 5 years, I have my work cut out for me. 

Not sure how this will play out, really, but I hope to start getting traction in about a month after Saturn crosses...I have been in that same "holding cell" that everyne describes around the time of this transit ie. tired, knowing I have much work to do yet a lack of energy to begin it in earnest. So trying to be patient during this time, as I know the ascendant crossing tend to make people fatigued and/or prone to stress/injury/what have you. I already have a big dental bill coming up -- ugh. Classic Saturn. 

Lots to think about 😉

Teresina said
I've been thinking about a lot of things, in order to organize what was impossible to mentally sort out when Saturn was in the 12th, and I'm trying to come up with a new normal.  

I feel you, Teresina! I cant wait for waiting here to be over. I've been looking down the road at this transit for about a year now, knowing that Saturn in the 12th is a time of consolidation and reflection, healing, and winding down, before a new chapter begins. 

And I am ready for that new normal! Becoming more visible is most definitely part of what the doctor ordered, too. The last few years have been rather isolating.

hayley said
I wonder if you can already see some of your challenges starting to take form? I'd be curious to hear about this.  

Oops, forgot to address this part! But yes, I do see what's ahead of me:

- Committing to this work/life path (ie. new business and artistic goals) after a year a uprooting/upheaval/endings. In other words: doing the work.

- The importance of routines ("Argh, never!" shouts this mostly air/fire soul) in order to accomplish said goals. A little (or a lot) of effort every day is the only way, I'm now convinced. Shortcuts dont work -- Ive tried them all.

- Desire to pare down, including any possessions, social commitments or activity that is superfluous.

- Working out/exercise! I've already begun a new fitness program as I became quite out of shape in my previous desk-based career. There is a need for renewed health.

- Rest. This includes sleeping more - I am a notorious night owl but am no longer loving this lifestyle, it just feels depleting.