transiting Uranus conjunct Descendant plus square Uranus/Pluto/Moon

Uranus is transitting my 8th house it comes in random bursts.

My progressed Moon in Cancer is being battered by saturn, uranus, and pluto.

Pluto hitting my IC then retrograding back onto my south node. Jupiter in opposition.

I have no clue about my transits at that point in my life, but there must've been a long, major one since I had those ideations (on and off) for 5 years.

The middle of the month I committed suicide (I don't have the date) I had the following transits:

t-Pluto conjunct Libra Neptune

t-Uranus conjunct my Libra Chiron and Juno/Jupiter (right between them in fact, and they are all conjunct)

t-Saturn conjunct my natal Uranus on my Midheaven - less than a degree from the angle, the H10 cusp

t-Venus opposing my Pluto in Leo

Also, the Moon was passing over my Cancer Mars and opposing my Sun/Venus, squaring my Juno/Jupiter (though the Moon could of course have been anywhere when it happened as I'm unsure of the exact date)