i will note the necessary lead in to this query subject is i have notorious reverse luck of most people with medical [authorities] care or services.

every now and then maybe once a year or two, there seems to be a magical moment where drs or other directly do their job and have accurate diagnosis or treatment.

currently, this latest scenario should be easier as 'technically' its non one of my many invisble illnesses.. 

but given that the surgery is in my neck/throat [ i have repeated major c/ptsd s from my life with which im on disabilty for] i just know this is very risky for me, its already stirring my ptsd because i feel clasustrophobic from constantly feeling like ive got something stuch in my throat and not breathing easily etcetc..

anyway,

my point is in 2 days i see the specialist again possibly planning the date of op. particularly because im now starting to not sleep without the same daytime annoyance and so there is no rest from the aggravation..

i have so many facets to why this is important including other injuries that can be made worse by posture placement and movement that can make consequences of exacerbation of my other chronic conditions that i try and ignore day-to-day mostly.. i have discovered that one of my acquired conditions in last  8-10years back, [harlequin syndrome] is coincidentally after my surgery i had years ago [for long-term hernias] resulting likely from posture placement etc..i have slight disc issues in my cervical.. the dates match... and so i am hesitant i can end up with more challenges, the orthodontic periodontal teeth ive been nursing for nearly 10years not to fall out, my knee that dislocates after a car accident. my hip and pelvis alignment that is constant lifestyle managed to keep flowing okay so it doesn't drag my spine slippage out of alignment... blah bla bla...gosh..i am aware this sounds like a hypochondriac monologue :/ so i won't go on.. i just wanted to get across the slight concerns i am vocalising here genuinely because it is legit real likelihood someone may mess up somewhere, even my husband and at least one of my kids are astounded at how i seem to just be invisible or insignificant to good quality health care -by medical staff or authority figures [i was a ward of state most of childhood it was the theme there also, sometimes magical moments of seemingly promising care.. only to be taken away or shattered in some various form, either by way of sheer human errors, person leaving/ or not available at key crucial times, or just general have persons that are having a bad /woopsy day or overlook obvious and important details that often just seem so common sense its mind boggling at times]..

im already aware and slightly nervous i may be booked for around the full moon... that i at least will sheepishly try really hard to deflect from and steer to another time.. but that makes me nervous of my internvention... what if i actually f it up myself by doing such..?

im adding my chart just so those that are experienced and not emotionally attached can check out or use to learn etc.. i also just happened to click on my progressed chart... thats quite amusing [if it werent involving me 😉 ] given the exact subjects ive just rambled on about for context seem to be being highlighted .. is it enhancing neptunes affects, in a positive or negative way, as in clarity, and accuracy etc..

thanks to y'aLL 😉 {~*~}