Maybe it's the Aquarius stellium, or maybe it's my Uranus opposition (now headed for Round Two)--but I'm developing a huge feeling of IDGAF. Towards people and things. It feels like I have no choice. Detach or feel pain.
@notmycircus l have been having some of that too. I'm not sure what it is with me but Uranus is at 7deg.Taurus and my ascendant is 8 deg. Scorpio. Could that be it?
@ln Maybe. Uranus crossing the Descendant would challenge your one-on-one relationships and you'll need freedom in those.
Uranus is natally in my 11th house, and I'm feeling a challenge in 11th house areas (groups, online relationships aka forums, etc.) Like I have to distance myself even more than I already do (Uranus is already not real big on joining groups or subscribing to groupthink--even if the group is freedom-oriented!). I feel like the outsider in every single group I'm in. This opposition just intensifies that.
Well I have a Stellium in my 11th house ALREADY of my Sun, Saturn, and Mars in Aquarius. So basically it feels like a homecoming after a lahhhhhhhhng time of slogging through hardship. Odysseus returns. My 11th house Aquarian has been so happy connecting with groups through the airwaves via technology. SO its jam! And here I am just adding another group to my list of digital communities I have been reaching out to.
The stellium is in the 2nd half of 1st House and 1st half of my 2nd house. One of the most significant things I'm doing is to free my heart. Literally. After many years of taking beta-blocking blood pressure medication, I began lowering the dosage and adding more herbals that ally with my heart. Motherwort, St. Joan's Wort (hypericum perforatum) and Wild Rose. When covid hit, my mentor and healer helped me see how the red rash showing up on my face (the mask I was wearing) was Anger no longer being willing to hide. She said, "You've got to face it."
Those two invitations to liberation are being fueled, I feel, by the Stellium conjunct my natal Black Moon Lilith. My heart and contained anger just won't take it any more. I'm putting stock in my own dear heart. Getting angry when I get angry, and not tamping it down until it explodes 'out of no where' ... that's different.
The sensations are wild, scary and amazingly alive! It takes some getting used to.
Still trying to land a new job and still waiting to hear whether I got a job after three weeks of interviews-gathering references-those references getting lost. Thanks Mercury Rx!
The Aquarius planets except for Saturn moved on to my 11th. The Sun, Venus and Jupiter are opposite my Sun and Mars. I hope my luck changes for the better and soon!
Well, the three interviews led to nothing, but I have three leads. All of them reached out today with the Sun newly in Pisces. (My NN is 2 Pisces.) Been applying like crazy. Praise heaven that Mercury is going direct!
The stellium in Aquarius resides on my 1st, but it is far from my Ascendant. I am writing a lot like a madman and it always seems as if something begs to be expressed and released out in the world. Out of the blue, I started to write three books, having also my Ph. D. thesis to tackle on top of it all! The energy is overwhelming and I have to be resourceful in order to keep up with it. Silent no more, I may say.
Well, It's hard to endure it. I thought maybe it will push me forward, but actually I feel drained, I've lost any motivation for my work that I really loved just two months ago, but mostly I feel angry, bitter, and drained, my energy is nowhere at the moment. This stellium falls in my 2nd and a little bit in 3rd house, but mostly 2nd. The truth is, I feel bad, and I know it will pass and I will get up, but this energy, it's hard to endure.