I was talking to a friend yesterday, about what I would and wouldn't do in this climate, like to stay alive?
I've never had a death grip on life. I've written about this over the years. Neptune in Scorpio can romanticize death. I think I've done this to a degree. As if you can step into death (like if you kill yourself) and be in bliss. My husband disabused me of this notion!
Anyway, we were talking and I said some things; these are views that have not changed, say due to my husband. Specifically, I would not treat cancer beyond a certain stage. This is a personal thing. I told my husband, many years ago, I would prefer to go home and die but if he wanted me to go through treatment, I would. But personally? No.
I am older now and feel that much stronger on this. I don't care if it gets me an extra year or two or even five. It's just not for me; I know this and I've known it a long time. If I were to take treatment, it would be a sacrifice. PERIOD.
The end of the conversation, I said something along the lines of, "Look. There are some things I would not like to do and there are some things I will never do."
"Like sell your soul?" she asked.
"Yes. I am not going to sell my soul for anything at any time."
How do you feel about these issues?
I have lots of thoughts on this topic. Gonna look for my Death with Dignity paper I wrote in grad school. If I find it I’ll share it.
Basically, I support Death with Dignity. I’ve seen too much suffering with people on hospice.
Here is my paper if anyone is interested in death with dignity. I wrote this four years ago so some of the policies may have changed by now.
This is excellent! Absolutely, every person should have the right to their own autonomy. I have immeasurable admiration for the wisdom and stamina you possess to excel in such an emotionally demanding field.
thank you❤️
can you believe I got through grad school while Neptune was conjunct my Mercury the entire time? Neptune was on my Mercury as I wrote this paper. Was not easy. But I got a 100% on this paper even though this paper has many grammatical mistakes probably due to Neptune. My professor said I should apply for the doctoral program. He was part of the committee that selects applicants for the program.
I have so many papers I could make a book, literally.
thanks for your kind words.
I have a difficult time saying I would definitely do this or I would never do that. I have been blessed with good health and require no medication. I don't like medication. I don't even take OTC drugs. I don't like the idea of chemotherapy, and I would probably opt for a more natural way to treat it. However, if my kids were young when I was diagnosed, I might sing a different tune. It would depend on the type of cancer, I think, and I'm sure I'd want to research the heck out of it before making up my mind. I can die and that's okay, but when it comes to my babies, I want to do everything I can to be there until they're adults. It would be a sacrifice for me to get treatment that wasn't just taking better care of myself. Getting vitamins and eating healthy food and getting sunshine? Sure. Pumping myself full of chemicals to kill it off and damage everything else in the process? No thanks.
If it's my time, it's my time. But faced with something treatable, I would fight and treat, simply because of the time of my life that I'm in. My old age I know will be different. At least I think so.
Selling my soul in any capacity would be impossible for me barring some extreme conditions that I can't fathom.
I was just faced with this. The answer was an astounding NO