Have you ever checked out A Course in Miracles? It might be of interest to you.

Sigh. Alas, it is on my long ass reading list and on my book shelf. I will get to it! 

I’m in the middle of the course in miracles right now. It is radical!

It sat on my shelf for decades but I wonder if I just wasn’t ready for it til now. I do wish I had read it when I was younger.

Ok, I have it sitting in front of me lol. There have been a series of messages in my life, that have suggested this book, and I just finished one, so I can really explore it. Here I go:) 

It is not an easy read. Or rather there are parts that are super clear, and then you hit a patch that seems opaque or dense and you have to slow way down... it is incredible how it contains Christianity, Buddhism and even non-duality. But it is about living it - the daily contemplation is a wonderfully aligning practice. 

Here Is a bit from lesson 71 that I’m working with today:

Remembering this, let us devote the remainder of the extended practice periods to asking God to reveal His plan to us. Ask Him very specifically:

What would You have me do?
Where would You have me go?
What would You have me say, and to whom?

Give Him full charge of the rest of the practice period, and let Him tell you what needs to be done by you in His plan for your salvation. He will answer in proportion to your willingness to hear His Voice. Refuse not to hear. The very fact that you are doing the exercises proves that you have some willingness to listen. This is enough to establish your claim to God's answer.