Hey Merc91,

I have Moon in the 8th and I did read in various sources at one point (books and good online content) that this meant having had experiences of loss/betrayal/abandonment.

Yes in my experience.

What I see in your chart around challenges (to eventually learn from) in relationships is:

- Venus square Pluto

- South node in the 7th house

- first house planets (and Ascendant with a wider orb) squared by Mars

- to an extent moon trine pluto too

With your Moon in Pisces you are way way way more sensitive than your Cap ascendant leads people initially to think/assume of you.

You have the moon trine pluto so you have huge emotional reserves and the ability to grow a lot and move on from painful and difficult experiences so these challenges you are experiencing will get better as you get older, I think.

You also have North Node in the first house - it's important that you do things more in line with your wishes and aspirations/dreams rather than overly think of or consider other people's wishes and aspirations/dreams.

The North Node first house needs to focus more on the My pronoun and less on the You/others pronoun. To be a pioneer, be different is the key. This might be a reason (I don't know, just speculating here) why some people try to interfere with your life. It's Ok, you're meant to do things differently.

There is intensity in your chart around relationships with fixed venus squared by pluto and 8th house planets. And there's sensitivity with pisces moon. These characteristics and realities will always be there.

This transit of Saturn to your ascendant and first house (and briefly the transit of Saturn conjunct your natal Saturn, like you say Saturn return, this spring and then again late 2020 and early 2021) will help you solidify and concretise your external presentation and behaviour and will help you form new priorities that will have a ripple effects on the other angular houses (4, 7, 10.)

Saturn lets go of things/people we don't need in painful ways (neptune does it in confusing, disorientating and disillusing ways; pluto does it intensely and often permanently) yet it's a sobering moment and much needed.

Learning to navigate life with the intensity within you and the intensity that this will attract will be an interesting (not always fun) and empowering lesson, I think.

Do you think you have a better knack now for recognising true kindness and goodwill in others and recognising shaky motives or thinking patterns in others after your life experiences?

I still get blindsided every now and then yet it's gotten much much much better as years went by. I have moon trine pluto and this aspect really is a lifeline - it'll serve you well too.

Good luck!

I have Neptune and Venus in Scorpio in the 8th house. 

Hey Cris and others thanks a lot for replies i will read them. I haven't been active in last 2-3 months. I wanted to take a rest from astrology and since i was so broken i needed to work things out in life.

Life is great at the moment. Personally i have strengthened a lot since April. Saturn return in 1st house period grinded me emotionally and psychically but things are taking place in right direction. Got a job, a bookkeeping. Pretty happy with this! I have waited a long time to get it and it finally happened. Social wise well it's still shaky however i am different person now and hopefully i wont attract manipulative individuals and psychopaths in my life (god give me a break please).

Feels honestly uncomfortable to read my posts here but it is reminder where i was and all the pain i went through just made me a lot stronger, wiser and tougher individual. I just can't believe i made it through. It lasted for months and months and is finally over.

I worked hard this year on my spirituality and inner self realizing that it's the only way i will find salvation and true self love. I was alone for prolonger period this year but space was much needed in order to heal. Uh uh uh what a year!

Hope you all doing fine and wishing you best regards!

Lovely interpretation Cris! Thank you a lot!

I will write couple of things related to your interpretation of my chart for which i am highly grateful even though i read it now and it was posted in late September.

I have been very focused on myself since things that happened to me realizing that i was doing a lot things in life wrong. Anyway we all make mistake and its important to learn from them which i certainly did. I realized it is better to be alone than be surrounded with wrong individuals even when i feel desperate for attention and socializing. I no longer make compromises with anyone who does not vibrates at the same frequency as me. The reason for that is because i have made a lot sudden uphill progress in life and people are insidiously jealous behind that sweet innocent smile but they can't hide it from me. Instead of dealing with it i just mind my own business and distance myself from such folks.

I came to realization that people are just hypocrite, even the close ones but since i have worked on myself hard this year i feel happy being alone and not desperate. To have inner peace is golden.

Do i have better knack? I want to believe that all people are capable of being a good and honest individuals. There is so much space and time for development in each of us. Sadly that's not the case. Some people are just...bad. Naivety of Piscean Moon. 

Differentiate one self with others and finding balance was the key lesson to learn.

My mistake has always been an instinctual to try and "fix" and help people who are below me in many life aspects and try to help them become equal and shape them according to my standards. That does not work and in the end i always get the short part of the stick. I am no longer doing that. I have completely embraced my Capricorn energies.

Looking forward to meet people who are on the same page as me in life. Mentally, emotionally, career and intelligent wise. 

Anyway i am so complicated person haha but i'm on right path now in life. Sorted everything out finally. There is still so much to learn but this year's Saturn lesson was a big one for me which i certainly wont forget for life.

I want to add couple of lines about North Node.

I have been following my North Node path and its been working in my favor tremendously.

I am intensively self willed individual. I never listen to anyone's advices when it comes to my personal wishes and ideas (unless i ask but usually i don't).

When i want to get and achieve something i desire- nothing and nobody can't influence my decision or stop me. I just do things my way in life. 

It is arrogant but that's what it is. People envy that. I am sorry but i don't know different.

I am still open to being helpful, compassionate and easy going individual when it comes to relationship with others but i have created some boundaries and more coutious.