depends on how much you love him. If u love him so much it hurts you'd wait till the ends of the earth. I know that's how i am 🙁

it's pathetic how i am but even if he never contacts me i'd be dying all the time inside and being hermit inside my home and hardly eat 🙁

and crying all the time too. I"m not ashamed to admit it. I would cry everyday and the memories would come flooding in and more tears would flow. Just thinking about it is even painful. I would never want to be in that situation. I think it's better to be oblivious about love. Then if anything happens, we can go merrily oblivious and being happy. 

To this day i've never changed how i am when i'm in love.  

Do u feel like you really can live without him if you break up?

Can you live your life freely and well without him?  Is it ever easy?

I hope you get answers soon. 

You are FWB. Period. If you can handle that without getting emotionally involved, then good. But it sounds like you are too emotionally involved to the point where  you are trying to “figure him out, based on the astrology” (my emphasis), rather than his actions. 

Relationships fail because expectations (for good or bad) are not fulfilled.

I dunno. Screw him and go live your life and take your energy off him.

So the whole him telling me he loves me and wanting to be exclusive and all were just lies? I really really want to believe otherwise...

Thanks, girl. Sometimes I have such a hard time figuring out what to think lol. This is why I come on this forum. ? I truly like him enough that I've given so much to him, etc. But obviously, there's a imbalance still. 

You're not pathetic in acting that way, girl. I feel it's so rare these days to have someone willing to stick by with someone regardless of the shit things they do. Although, people look at it in a unhealthy way, I think that right there is the purest form of love. To love without any expectations or getting anything in return. Yeah, I'm with you on the crying part. ? Crying myself to sleep at night sometimes because I don't know if this will all work out. 

Can I live without him? Idk. He's always the first thing I think about when I wake up, when I go to sleep. He used to be all I could ever really think about. 

Would things be easier? Yeah, I honestly think me being in his life would be like a burden. 

Thanks for all this, girl. ❤️ I feel like my emotions are flooding back in finally haha. 

Sometimes they test you out of jealousy. The other half want to know if you truly love them. Sometimes they test you to see how strong you are. Oh God, help us.....

I meant 'envy', not jealousy. But whatever.