Gemini Lilith 9th house unaspected ....no idea what it means really

Lillith in Cancer, 1st house.

Is it BML we're talking about?

My Lilith is in the 10th house in Sag, square my Sun and sextile Mars in the 8th. I'm not sure how to discern it's influence on my sexuality, but it does f*ck with my career and attitude towards conventional work, and with asteroid lilith in my 1st - also angular, I think I must embody this rebelious energy in quite an apparent way

Lillith in Cancer 6th

And aspects my whole chart, makes grand trines, and grand crosses, etc...

this is a great reference (thanks satori!)

https://elsaelsa.com/astrology/2012/02/15/black-moon-lilith/

i have BML conjunct my sun to less than two degrees but...i don't see it. i'm comfortable with my sexuality but not brazenly sexual. pretty open to anything but can't say that many wild and crazy things have happened to me. maybe that's cuz it's in virgo?

In Aqua, unaspected, & I'm damned if I can see or feel anything to do with her, soooo...