I'm a Libra sun, venus, and ascendant with a heavy dose of Scorpio but my moon is in Aquarius. Ever since I was young I've felt different, not in a weird circus kind of way but in a subtle hard to pinpoint kinda way. Every single girl or woman I've ever interacted with has always expressed their desire to marry and have a family at one point or another but I never felt that way. When I was younger I thought, okay maybe its a maturity thing and eventually I'll come to desire those things but I'm turning 30 this October 22 and that couldn't be furthest from the truth. It's not that I don't crave companionship or that I want to go around the world "slutting" around; I just don't want to sign a paper, wear a dress, or have any kids. I don't hate kids but I don't feel motherly or like they'll give me any sense of "woman accomplishment". Do any of you Aquarius suns or moons out there identify with this feeling or am I just a cold freak lol
Well, I'm a Virgo moon BUT I'm an Aquarius. I felt (still often feel) the same way you do. Never, ever dreamed of my wedding day, wedding dress, never played wedding with my Barbies. Terrified of the possibility of childbirth, then terrified I wouldn't be a good parent (probably my Virgo moon talking).
I was a nanny for a couple years a long time ago and that gave me my first taste of maternal feelings. Not enough to have a baby though.
I did end up getting married, though, at age 42. Never became Bridezilla. Wanted the wedding my way but I'm pretty easygoing and it wasn't an over-the-top affair.
At times I regret having children, but I knew that was a possibility to feel this way. I guess I don't know what I'm missing but I made my choice. I don't feel paralyzed or depressed with regret. It's more wondering.
I wholeheartedly think you should do things in your own time. I would never ever think you were cold hearted or a freak, whatever, whenever you decide.
I'm an Aquarius. I wanted to marry out of high school and have four babies. Two boys, two girls. I was always dreaming up names. Gave birth to my daughter when I was 23 and single. Placed her for adoption. Gave birth to my son in 2007. Suffered from postpartum depression and anxiety. I see my son once a week. My ex-husband, a Leo, is a much better parent than I am...unfailingly kind, generous, selfless, patient. Motherhood is the most challenging, heartbreaking experience I have ever lived through. I love my son so I am fighting to survive in a rat race city when everything in me wants to run and hide. My mom has Aquarius moon. We have had a...challenging relationship.
My husband has an Aqua asc... never wanted kids, never had any. His mother is an Aqua sun, has two, no relationship with either.
My youngest sun has an Aqua moon. It took a long time for him to get on board
My husband has a stellium in Aquarius... including Moon and Sun... for many years, he was completely invested in being a father and a "family man." He's said to me that he "always knew," since a very young/tender age, that he'd be married and have a family, and his life would be guided by that. Now the nest is empty... he struggled with it at first, but maybe most people would/do? I don't have personal experience to draw on re this. (Saturn in Aquarius/8th square Neptune in Scorpio/5th, and biquintile Pluto in Virgo/4th conjunct IC ... I never had biological children, and never wanted any. I also have Sun and BML closely conjunct in Libra/4th. Family was and is often a painful topic for me.)