this trip has been one of love, cheating, loss, meeting elusive people with mental health issues, impossible love, love at a distance, addiction, despair, powerlessness, tears,
transcending physical love, and l hope not death!!
this is the last time that Neptune crosses my descendant (plus the neptune square neptune transit)
it started before l turned 40 l thought oh well
l know so much about astrology l will be fine uhhhhhm WRONG!
l have lost my head, my heart and have cried a thousand tears for people l had to let go off, l felt trapped it has been some freaking ride
now while Neptune is sitting nicely on my DC again l am seeing my friend l've met a year ago struggling with a huge addiction to benzos a.o. things he is slowly dying
yes l do love him and l almost left everything for him after meeting up (he is Sicilian)
this summer but then it hit me hard although our sun and moon venus are conjunct and it felt GOOOOOOD for both
l felt l would not survive the journey with him and l called it off.
we both fell in a huge depression but
decided to remain friends and while l am finding solutions for everything now it might be that l am going to have to accept he will not survive this. even if he will get into a clinic after new years.
and while l kind of let go of him romanticaly for the past months he burst back into my life with full force 3 weeks ago (yes NEptune is ON AGAIN)
he came with huge love declarations like
by the way l am dying but don't worry live your life just
had to let you know l have never loved like l loved you! l never believed in love really you changed that, you are the one
l can not did not forget you etc
WHAAAAT???!?!?!?!?!?!? it took me by surprize blew me away...and broke me open!
l decided to stand by him as friends still
we just have to transcend that romantic love
...just really really hope he has the strenght to persevere he is so ill that its scary
he is such an amazing intelligent beautiful person
yet with a very dark destructive Scorpio Sun
seen his path of self destruct it's scary
my relationship i am in survived even if we did separate for a while
my view on relationships has changed though ...
l made some dreams come through for the past
2 years while all this drama was going on
l will have 2 albums come out in 2019 so this is for me the most beautiful dream ever
bitter sweet though
Have you felt swept away by an outer planet ?
What was your lesson?
Wow. I was a teenager then but Neptune in the 7th was a rollercoaster of a ride. Highest of highs and the lowest of lows. Neptune is the planet of deep disappointment. I know it has positives but oh my the negatives.
Tam oh yeah ok l remember that Neptune through the 5th was also VERY wow but ohhh uhmmm l hope l can deal better with this now that l am older yest not old enough l guess hahaha
yes it has been something else indeed, l need a solid Saturn! l am really trying hard always to bend things to a positive even though l will go through the highs and lows! Thanks Tam