Saturn is square my moon and I feel exhausted. Not in a bad way necessarily, but it's hard to find the joy or excitement in anything. Mars has been in my 12th house for several months, conjunct my Asc now. Work projects are finally getting done, time to find some new ones. But I'd gotten comfortable hibernating and resting, now picking up where I left off feels much too tedious and disorienting.
My younger sister is having her Saturn's Return and boy, does she need a wake up call. I've been trying to bite my tongue because I just don't have the energy for a fight and her crying, throwing a tantrum. She's 27.
I just don't have the energy for it right now, but she needs some kind of reality slap because she's just not making good decisions and it's affecting my mom, her son, and me. I just know that when I say something, it's probably going to sting really hard and I'm trying not to pinch her with my crab claws too hard, but she needs someone to shake her and be like "what the hell are you doing!" I'm also tired of taking on my family's problems as mine especially if they're not willing to help themselves. It's just not fair and I feel like the responsibility is all on me when it shouldn't be.
My mom and I just feel really bad for my nephew because he's obviously being neglected in so many ways. He's about to be 6 years old and has a speech impediment that she refuses to solve by going to a specialist. He can barely say coherent complete sentences and at first it was cute when he was like 2, but now, it's concerning. I honestly think that she's afraid he may be autistic and doesn't want to deal with that knowledge. And I also feel like she's just disillusioned right now. Wanting to find a husband more than taking care of her business at home first (the religion I grew up in puts emphasis on marriage).
My mom, who is battling cancer, takes more care of my nephew than my sister does. And my sister relies on her to do it and gets mad when my mom tells her that she's too tired or to come back for him soon, feed him, etc. She even got mad at my mom because my mom said she couldn't homeschool him because SHE'S SICK BATTLING CANCER and feels fatigued a lot. Then my sister the other day had the nerve to call my mom selfish. She's my mom's baby and have always been spoiled and honestly still operates in that mindset. I've talked to her many times about getting her son into school, taking him to a speech pathologist, etc but she won't for some reason. Refuses to listen to anyone. And keeps going back to her toxic abusive boyfriend and expects everyone to jump in and help/save her when things get rough. WE ARE TIRED OF IT.
Multiple family members have tried to talk to her, but it goes in one ear and out the other. That's another reason why I haven't confronted her about a lot of stuff because it feels like, is it even worth it? I don't want to give up on her, per se, but I'm also like if she won't listen, then she's going to have to learn on her own, some kind of way. I haven't had a moment where it's just us, kind of been avoiding it, because I know I will probably go in on her and I just don't have the energy for it right now. My mom wants me to talk to her, but ugh. I just hope her return matures her a bit and she wakes up and realizes what she has been doing and not been doing. Or I just fear that it won't get better. My mom often says she feels like she'll eventually have to take custody of my nephew. It's been giving her strength to fight the cancer. Hell, I've even thought about what if I had to take custody of me nephew. It's a very real and unfortunate thought.
My sister is an Aquarius with Pisces planets. My mom is a Leo.
Thanks for giving this space to let this out.
@elsa thank you, Elsa. To provide more context, she doesn't fully neglect her son. She does feed him when she gets to it, etc. but there are times and things like his speech and education. She honestly never wanted and never planned on having kids so my nephew was definitely an (unwanted) surprise. It goes pretty deep. A lot to explain, but just wondering, if this was your sister and after countless of times trying to talk some sense into her, would you keep trying?
I honestly feel like I need to take a complete step back and let God and the universe, or whatever, just work it out. I've done so much to help my family especially my mom, that I'm just super exhausted from them. I have been living with my mom, helping them out (and myself too), helping pay her bills while my sister barely does anything, basically freeloading- she and son lives there too. It's fucking frustrating. I'm moving out very very soon because I need the space and to get on with my own life again, fully, but I'm worried for my mom.
@ridingthewaves you do not have to be her Saturn figure. Step back and watch. Someone will come in and do the job for you...
So I was thinking, Saturn in Pisces will aspect my Venus . Will I be haunted by all my dead friends? Lol
@acerolachip That would be more a Pluto thing.
This transit could be teary. Just do right by others / don't be hard on yourself.
@elsa thank you, came back to report on a distant family member passing soon. But also Pluto ..
im learning to wash dishes all over! My old life coach would be proud.
It’s going to hard on my grandpa .
This thing will cross my descendant in the next 3/4 years probably (have mid deg ascendant in Virgo)....
I have a feeling it'll be tougher than saturn return (which was, frankly breezy for me.)
I'm not sure if this is true for everyone, but specifically for Virgo, this could also be a lack-of-control thing (because Pisces saturn will oppose virgo planets/placements)....which is a bit unnerving for me, because I also have cardinal stuff in my chart.
Also, my chart is pretty much free of opposition; I'm a very self-sustaining person. 7th house/opposition transits are a bit trippy for me I guess