Hi, KidA.

Moon is my chart ruler, as I am Cancer ascendant. It's in Pisces, conjunct
Chiron, Moon is either in 8th or 9th house depending on house system. Chiron
is in the 9th. Moon trines Neptune in the 4th, and opposes my Uranus/Mercury/
Pluto conjunction. Zero degree orb in the case of Pluto and exact.

My mom was always older and suffered terrible health problems all her life.
She had Scarlet fever when she was little and ended up getting electric shock
treatments in the '50's long before I came along. She was addicted to a drug
called Soma, a muscle relaxant that put her in a "Soma Coma" for which she
emerged unable to recall being unconscious. She never knew her real father,
was fortunate to have had a loving step father and her mother was horrible.
My mom was very dedicated to her family, but by the time I arrived, she was
so addicted and out of it I did not get the nurturing I needed. She did not sober
up until I was 19 and out of the house. She became this functioning, social
loving and friend surrounded, organized go getter I never recognized or ap-
preciated.

I have a son who is biracial, I'm white and his dad is Asian. I was excited
to have a biracial child, I think he is beautiful and fascinating to look at. I
marvel at the genetics in action. His father and I used to enjoy going out in
public with him and if someone noticed, we would ask them which one of us
he resembled most. My son tells me how puzzling it is to visit my side of the
family, white as sheets and his dad's family, who do not speak english and
live in another country. He feels a strange disconnect from both, and he is
a definite trailblazer separate from us all.

 Kid A I am so sorry you had to deal with this as a child. My first love was a black man ,I fell in love with his family as well.[This was over 40 years ago}. I so wanted a bi racial baby, they are so beautiful but he turned out to be a player so that didn't work out. I have a sag moon my Mom an aqua. Very difficult time growing up. She took her frustrations out on the younger children {she was thrown into menopause at 32, so I have learned a lot about why she was so abusive when I was a child}. Its is great that you are able to forgive your Mom. I just wish I had got some psychological help before I married my first husband.  He would beat me then cry and apologize after, as did my Mom. We do so much on a subconscious level.

My Aqua moon Squares Mars (Taurus) and Uranus (Scorpio) and trines Venus, Sun (Gemini) & Pluto (Libra). My mom is a Pisces. She will give you the food she's eating if she knows you're hungry. I love her tremendously and am grateful for her. Though I do find it hard to verbalize how much I love her.

my moon is in libra in 4th house
my mother is a cancer sun and gemini moon.

as a child i felt like i had to constantly maintain harmony around me. I was always pleasant, not disruptive, always on the best behaviour.
My mother is a very nurturing woman!
She cooks delicious food, is witty and intelligent and fun,
but her emotional moodiness really tipped me off balance as a child. I interpreted her mood swings the wrong way, I felt like her hot-cold treatment was something i deserved for whatever reason, so i tried to act accordingly, plain old libra pleasing and balance control.
with age Saturn squaring my moon build up this stealth curtain to shelter myself from all the emotional neglect and disappointment i felt in this relationship. Until I sat myself down and did some heavy spring cleaning.
With awareness came forgiveness and appreciation for the things she does. But growing up also means to see your own emotional needs and understanding the boundaries of what you tolerate or dont, alright.