Do you (still) try to improve, or are you just trying to get by? Like if you could put yourself on a scale... a thermometer, 0-100, measuring your energy, where would you be? High enough, to have some energy to work with? Or are you just too depleted?
I am very depleted right now, so probably 0. I am in my early thirites. My friend and I used to believe it is difficult to change after a certain age.
Judging from my experience so far I think that the older you get, the more you are overwhelmed by responsibilities and reality to have time/ energy for improvement. Personally I would hate to be stagnant or to hold on outdated views just because of it. But I am learning to be kinder to myself and allow my body to rest too
@resurgam Sarah, I'm so sorry. I hope you get an influx of energy, but I sure agree with you. Rest is essential!
Y'all. I am tired as FUCK. Neptune opposing my Mars amputated my mental dick.
I used to be Supergirl. I once had a full time, very draining job in special ed, and full time math major coursework, did it all on 4hours of sleep a night, looked "done" and still got to church on Sunday. I was crushing it. That was many traumas ago. Now I've got autoimmune issues and can rarely do all my dishes. I'm pathetic. And it keeps me up all night. Deadly cycle.
So, not to miss the entire point of this thread, I'm under no illusion that I'll ever be what I was again, but I must improve from whatever this is. Trying to digest everything that happened from 2017-2023 and be somebody who can do homework and dishes, even if everything else ain't done.
, I'm under no illusion that I'll ever be what I was again, but I must improve from whatever this is.
Careful, because you're programming yourself here. If you believe you can't... well, if you have a mental dick, in the first place, you probably can.
"Lupus" patient here, feeling great on 25% of the meds they prescribed me. Quit the rheumatologist several years ago. Indian dude, who loves astrologers. He tipped me off in a sense.
This was during covid. What they were doing in India was different than here. I got the idea he was talking to "back home" about how insane...
You might be right. I'm coming more from the angle of radical acceptance. I try not to let my brain go full doomsday and tell me I'll be dead in 10 years. I'm just having to be very careful where I spend my energy every day. I don't know if I'm making more or less sense.
@katyusha you make sense. It's just easy to get lost in fear right now (Saturn in Pisces).
Past my 2nd Saturn return and I feel well positioned for the future, whatever it is. I’m able to help family and friends of all ages emotionally and practically. In the last 15 years I’ve learned astrology, a foreign language, and am currently learning all I can about homeopathic medicines. I generally feel capable, useful and very alive.
I definitely try to improve, every day. Henry taught me this; I think it's a Buddhist thing. Whatever it is, I adopted it.
I think it serves in that every day I wake up, positive action is on offer.
“Isn’t it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet.”
Anne Shirley of Anne of Green Gables
Usually around 70 or 80. Not today, but it's a glitch.