WindowLicker said
I had weird Lilith contacts going on with my the ex. He had his Lilith conjunct his Capricorn Sun, both exactly on my Descendant; and his Jupiter conjunct my Virgo Lilith and Virgo South Node by degree. There was a strong Lilith theme to our relationship; he wanted to tame me (even sexually), to impose his views on me, and this triggered my hidden, primeval Lilith aggressiveness, so we clashed on a regular basis and the last months of our relationship were spend fighting almost daily. But at the same time there was an obsessive fascination on both parts. It was a stormy, intense and short-lived relationship, I fell in Love at first sight and even 5 months after the breakup I still feel that visceral pull and desire.
Sounds fascinating WL. Sorry for being blunt but how was the sex? Was there tantric lifechanging obsessive transformative sex involved. This is what the girl is known for.
I've had Mars conjunct and square Lilith in synastry, both times I was Mars. From what I could tell, I seem to have affected the Lilith person, because they acted very nervous around me, but they affected me too. I dont know if they were nervous because of attraction or they were just scared. ha
The guy I have Mars square BML, oh my gosh.... I was mesmariezed by him. Full on mesmarized. His Lilith falls in my 8th house in Gemini, conjunct my Vertex, and a few degrees from my Moon too, though not as close a conjunction.
When he would walk in the room, my eyes would immediately find him and I could-not-look-away. Our interactions were overwhelming, and I think we could both trigger each other into an insanely jealous fit.
We had a lot going on synastry. I still think about him...
I remember always feeling like I couldn't resist him. Not a lot of people have had that effect me.
I was a little reluctant to mention this in my post... but essentially, he was in relationship when we met. So of course, didn't pursue it. It was very unexpected attraction in both situations.
I think Lilith can represent forbidden attraction, and that was what played out for me.
All I can say is there was a lot of chemistry, but, I feel intensely guilty even thinking about it. I hope I can experience this kind of chemistry again some day, without the forbidden part!
strawb. said
I was a little reluctant to mention this in my post... but essentially, he was in relationship when we met. So of course, didn't pursue it. It was very unexpected attraction in both situations.I think Lilith can represent forbidden attraction, and that was what played out for me.
All I can say is there was a lot of chemistry, but, I feel intensely guilty even thinking about it. I hope I can experience this kind of chemistry again some day, without the forbidden part!
Was this the conjunct or the square?
I don't think you have to feel guilty about the attraction though. It happens all the time and you didn't pursue him.
thanks, notintofeet.
the conjunction was married.
the square had a on-off girlfriend. ive been told they have since broken up for good.
it's ridiculous the number of times this has happened to me, and i have resisted every time. i wonder if it's a karmic lesson/test for me or something. but, you're right, im realizing this seems to happen a lot to a lot of people.
i just hope when i meet the right one, it doesnt.