Welcome, NewGal.  Your situation is pretty complicated but I will try to hit the high points.

First, Venus in Aquarius tends to be commitment-phobic.  Your Capricorn can help, if you work with it but left to it's own devices, Capricorn will reject in order to avoid being rejected. 

Again, you have free will but without considering what you're doing, you probably don't stick around?  You may leave or provoke the other to leave... it may seen easier,

Mars squaring Venus is also problematic as is your moon completing the Fixed T-square.

You don't want to be bored, you probably do want to fight, you want security and loyalty.   This is exists - my marriage is like this, but it doesn't grow on trees.

Not sure what you MO is, but if you decide to hunt love on instinct - this would work with your chart.  I'm just saying the quiet part out loud, as they say.

Good luck!

I think you've nailed most of it Elsa!!!!! Whoa you are  *amazing* 0.0

I selfsabotage by being codependent yet fiercely independent. I just long for affection, love that grows and supports his/my growth. I don't mind a fight. 10th house Mars taurus: I'm somehow tossed overboard and le ft for.dead in most situations(she is stromg she can take.it!) , until the end when most find out not only did it make it, I've reached shore against all odds...see? Told ya she'd make it! But hell, I hunt them forever, patiently. Moon Scorpio. Mars 10th Taurus: yep. I'm feared removed link I'm in Politics. I'd very much like to.find him. The one.

Your descendant is actually in Capricorn, and your Sun is conjunct. I wonder if there’s a tendency to lose yourself in a relationship and then your Venus in Aquarius rebels. Moon in Scorpio will probably want someone who can withstand that trial by fire. Maybe lots of on and off relationships. I wonder if deep down you feel like you are “too much” or a handful. You aren’t, you just have to find the person that can meet you on a few different levels (intellectually as well as emotionally and physically) and who respects your boundaries, because you can actually handle a really complex relationship with someone else who is complex. But probably always a good idea to have other outlet’s besides the relationship, hobbies and passions etc. and that will temper the tendency to run hot and cold. 

Also, look into what your attachment style is- it can be really useful to know.