I’m 32, female, and I have chemical depression.
I quit my last (horrible) job and moved back home so I could go to school full-time. I’ve tried all kinds of different medications since high school and nothing seems to “take.” I can get out bed and do mundane tasks but I never look forward to anything and I have no energy.
I want to be like other people who have goals and actually want to get up in the morning. I’m not in therapy because I can’t afford it right now and also because I’m starting to think that I’m hopeless. Do I have any hope?
Depressed in Texas
Yes, you have hope. There is always hope. People pull back from the brink of hell allllll the time. Especially when they’re Scorpios! Or Capricorns like you, who astrologer Jayj Jacobs characterizes as “Scorpios in suits”. In other words, you are made of some serious stuff and I highly doubt you are going to go down and stay down.
That said, you do have very significant transits to your chart, so the thing to do is adjust your expectations. It’s like standing at the base of a tall mountain. You’re going to get up it, I’m sure. But not in a day! Or a week.
And I know what you’re thinking. “I can’t! I just want to get in bed and pull the covers over my head,” but obviously you are not going to be able to do that. With your Moon in Virgo, you are being pressured to fix this, and with the emphasis on Capricorn in your chart, the way you’ll solve this is by making a commitment to methodically solving your problems and embracing the idea that the process with be long and somewhat arduous.
That much right there will help your Scorpio Sun focus. Rather than waffling and debating what to do, you know the number one thing you need to do is to get your meds right. So put your feelers out. Use your spider senses to guide you… which doctor you might call that will have what you need.
See, I really think a commitment (Capricorn) to focus (Scorpio) on your health (Virgo) is the ticket. This is how your chart is set up, and once you start living in a way that is authentic… once you find the right path, the universe indubitably will send support. The doctor who gets your meds right will give you the name of the therapist who winds up helping you, etc. etc.
So hell yes, there is hope. And help! You only need recognize you’re not getting up this mountain without climbing and once you do that, your inner mountain goat will conspire with your Scorpio Sun and your health encyclopedia Virgo Moon, and you’ll be on your way.