soup said

Is this what I called for? Shit, now I am an elder?

  

Well, it spares you being 65 years old, trying to run around the neighborhood trying to be sexy!

But I could tell you were thinking that but you know me. Soldier, on!

I talk to Scorpios sometimes and wonder if some vicious shit is not going to be unleashed on me, three days or four weeks for five years, down the road.

It happens on occasion!

This is a dangerous job! 

Nonsense, if any Scorpio is weak enough to try their sting on you, they aren't a proper Scorpio.

Scorpios in good standing like me observe it, borrow from it, and add it to their arsenal.

You are a teacher, we respect that.

I was teasing ....about the elder stuff. Time was flying by. I knew it, but was not facing it. It was really important that i understand what I had to lose if I kept trodding along, thinking I was strong enough to keep physically handling the things I continued to do. It was backbreaking, but I did not stop. Not even with a broken ankle. I worked every day with a cast on my foot. I worked with a glove and tape with a deep bite wound that could have used at least 8 stitches, I worked when I couldn't take a deep breath and when I could hardly raise my arms above my head. I thought, I am not going to fail, when what I was doing spelled failure in capital letters. 

It takes an outside voice sometimes to guide you in a direction so you will succeed. 

If anyone has ill intentions toward you giving solid advice, this is going to blow up in their face and damage them!  Only a very stupid Scorpio (or any other sun) would not recognize this. Why would they call for help? 

Just because we don't want to hear the obvious doesn't mean it isn't obvious. 

My shit was about control. All of it. I was going to control it all and run myself straight into the ground doing it. This is what fixed does... until someone points it out... My childhood was out of control. I have always tried to control the things I could put my hands on...to avoid what a I lived through as a kid, and because I have a chart full of fixed. 

You have always given me solid advice Elsa, even when it was hard to hear. Each time it planted a seed in my brain, and it would come up when I was tripping over something. 

Do you remember the one about making moon's mother stronger? Well, I did it. And, she is. Now, I can't stand this person to such a degree that I can't tolerate being in a room with her. But, she is, and those kids are being taken care of. It was a huge sacrifice. Had I done anything else it would have been the downslide of at least 5 lives. And, I took a freaking beating from it too. The end result is that two people I love more than myself are being cared for properly. And, that is truly all that matters. A Scorpio making a Capricorn stand tall, take charge, rise and earn, and care for their family? Unheard of right? NO! She runs that home, her kids and makes my son do the right thing. Who wins>>>>???? We all do. It's important to know when you are needed, and when you are not. 

And, yes... 65 year olds running around in tube tops and low riding jeans with their asses hanging out. I don't care what kind of physical condition you are in...there comes a time when exactly NO ONE wants to see all that. (i didn't dress like that when I was 18 lol) 

There comes a time for each of us when we have to parent ourselves. We have to mature, and do the right thing not only for ourselves but for the people around us no matter how hard that may be. There is no copping out, there is no time for slacking. The consequences are grim. 

soup, yer on fire! Preach it!

I do remember moon's mother.

The thing is, at the second Saturn return, you are not going to be doing what you have been doing, so what is the new thing you are going to be doing?

That's for sure...Now that I think about it I have not found the need to be sexy since my Saturn return !! Probably because I haven't had sex since then. I think I forgot whats that like. I wonder if its like riding a bicycle .. No pun intended.. he he.