It's an interesting question! I don't think I can get out. I can get mostly out, though.
^^^ That's a Henry thing ^^^
It comes from here:
https://elsaelsa.com/astrology/living-on-the-fringe-of-society/
I feel I can stay on the periphery for the rest of my life. I also think everyone else may be on the periphery whether they call it that or not.
How do you see this? Do you feel you're in the mix of life? If we're all part of the machine, how integrated are you? Could it be less or more than you think?
Yeah, I'm in the mix. I feel like it's my duty - I've got Saturn 6th. I'm generally pro-establishment. Shocker. I know it's not trendy, but there you have it.
@aquarius-lurker I respect that. It makes me reminds me of someone I knew (who was living a very countercultural lifestyle) who said, "the system is the solution."
@cocopeaches : Appreciate the positive vibe! The system is the solution - sounds mighty smart. I wonder what it means...
@aquarius-lurker Lol, I've had the thought that maybe local politics is a good place to start.
@cocopeaches : Ha ha! Ever dabbled in community garden politics? It's tenacious. Good prep for the big leagues. 😉
@aquarius-lurker As a matter of fact I have! I'm in my 5th year being involved at a leadership level. Volunteer, of course. You speak the truth. 🤣
I'm not very integrated into the machine. It is heavy in the 3rd dimension.
You got to out to get in.
There was a book called "the folk of the fringe"
Of course I had to read it. Looking for My people!
Maybe it will make sense if I read it now.
I feel very confused contemplating your questions. I dont like not having answers. Maybe its all my progressed pisces. I dont know WTF.
Most of what I am seeing I am labeling trauma response.
I must be stuck in trauma response myself. HMMMM.
I thought I was resisting.
"you got to out to get in" ? Can you explain more?
@aquarius-lurker lt is hard to explain but l am going to give it a shot. I think it is a boring story to most. It is a little embarrassing. It's only important to me. My chart has it's vertical axis rooted and grounded in Aquarius with a Uranian energy and l think my life and my being has been one large tower moment. I have to play both sides, and follow my heart courageously like a Leo should. I have a ninth house Sun. I am seeking forever, looking for tracks. Where do they go?
It is my way. Others have their own way. It is right that it should be so. There are many paths, right?
These are observations and an inner dialog of a Pluto/Uranus conjunction in Virgo. Not for popular consumption, lol. I am going to see things oddly. I am uncomfortable in the status quo, it is part of my design. I come by it honestly, it's organic and not contrived.
GET OUT
The matrix or this material is calling to a shared rhythm. It seems to have a frequency or feeling of great weight and gravity. In the depths of this place l can feel a lot of trauma at a soul level. Something needs attention. Something needs healing. I have questions.
Who is calling the tune? Why am l freely following philosophies that keep me bound here? Who/what benefits from these operational principles? Can l trust what l have been told and taught to believe? Is there a contractual agreement here somewhere? I don't think so. Who is ultimately responsible for this? I AM.
I intuit that l need to part company with the mass movement of people around me because their final destination is not what it seems. I want out. There has to be another way.
GET IN
I want to properly come into being. I intuit potential. I think l need to go the way of the opposite. I need to stop looking outside of myself at the people and things around me to feed your soul. There will be a doorway that l will find. Just go inside. Looking at myself, being the observer l have found an awful lot of shadows in there. It is a lifetime job. I am seeing progress. This is good. For all my faults, and they are many, l am finding a way out within myself. Something akin to divinity is helping me here and the light is coming in. I think perhaps it is pouring out at the same time? I think there is redemption for me here. There is some kind of treasure here. It feels life-giving somehow.I have become comfortable for the first time in my life. I am being more kind to myself than l used to be. Things seem to be flowing and time feels different. There is less urgency. It feels sort of chill in a way.
It's a fools journey I'm on.
I hope that at least a few sentences of this makes sense. I know l am obscure. I try though.🙃🥵
@ln : OK, so I'm going to try to re-cap. Forgive me. I will never understand it perfectly, because it's your unique subjective experience. But if I can attempt a re-cap, it's this - you are seeking the answer to 'what is life on Planet Earth about?' by going inward inside yourself. Is that close enough?
Good questions...I guess I'm in the mix of life to the extent that I live in a major city and I go out and do things. I do most things alone but in the presence of people. Also, I work for the government, which I know many view as part or all of the machine. I am working on a large project intended to help get more money and improved services to children in the state's foster care system.
I sometimes marginalize myself with my behavior, like not being on social media. I shut that stuff down almost 4 years ago as it doesn't feel "real" to me.
I've been going to meetups lately, trying to find a way to be more "in the mix" that feels good. I'm finding there are certain personalities and ideologies that I have a hard time sharing space with. (Not in the moment as I'm nice to people regardless, but in terms of wanting to come back.) I don't want to give up on the effort as regular social contact has become less frequent for me and it's something I miss. There is an astrology/metaphysics book discussion group I've attended that has promise but it's too early to get a full read on the situation. I feel like with Neptune transiting the 11th squaring natal Jupiter I need to be careful.
Overall I wouldn't say that marginalizing myself is a goal that I have. Rather than escape the matrix I would rather transcend it (psychically, even while being within it) and transform it.
I am a chameleon. I am mainstream in reality (7th house sun in Gemini conjunt Venus) but have a natural rebellion (1st house retro Uranus conjunct south node) and a Scorpio rising. Pluto recently began entering my third house and that along with Uranus transiting my 6th is sparking this newfound interest in learning about how to be healthy and why this is all kept a big secret. Well, what began the interest was the pandemic but what really sparked a deeper dive was losing my dog suddenly earlier this year, but I am also considering the astrology of it. Unbeknownst to me, being fit does not necessarily equate to being healthy. Anyway, I am interested in things that aren't totally acceptable to converse about with the mainstream public that I live and work among. I will say though, when I started to learn astrology in 2008 it was much less acceptable than it is today.