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His heart is "stiffening". Search that. This is what is untreatable and hereditary. Bad.

So if the heart racing is not due to infection and instead originates in the heart, that would add up to stage 3 HFpEF aka diastolic heart failure,  which is dire.

I am not confident he is fully diagnosed,  because the infection they are treating did not show on the test. They also thought it was possibly due a prostate issue... which he is clear of.

Bottom line, why is his heart racing? Unclear. 

Just to get info out there... physical damage to heart, plus malfunction, current or in the past, is what puts you in a later stage.  Regurgitation in two types of valves.  I don't know.  I am enjoying this reprieve and I do not look at him and feel he's dying.  On the other hand, I've been treating him like a heart patient.

Mainly this means, I don't push him or do or say anything that might piss him off. Like I think he could rage himself into a heart attack.  I am not ready to relax on this yet. 

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@elsa I really feel for you both. I’m so close to my husband, he is everything to me. Can only begin to imagine the worry. 🧡

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@plutopussycat Thank you. I've been pretty even through this, in large part, due to how my husband handles himself.  He's just a certain type character. It's hard to explain.

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I got this stalker trying to track my every move. So pathetic.

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@sirena-oceana Mine is back. Just as I predicted. Pluto square sun. I am so over it. Have you told anyone so that someone knows? (so you will be safe?) I let my husband know from the very first moment. My whole family knew and knows. I am not terrified... but I probably should because it never ends. 

Is there something going on with your Venus right now? Make sure you let someone know. I didn't want to end up in a ditch ... leaving no suspect haha 

I shouldn't even 'haha' because I have had no real rest since it started. It's gross. 

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 Pluto square Venus... is what I meant. Not sun.

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@soup nothing is going on with Pluto for me right now except t. Pluto is squaring my natal Saturn/Pluto. 
I think it’s Rahu. Vedic astrologers don’t use Pluto and they say Rahu has everything to do with obsession. Right now I have t. Rahu on my n. Mars. My N 10H Venus (in sidereal/Vedic) is ruled by Mars so there’s the connection. 

And no worries, I am safe. The person isn’t going to do anything. It’s just online stalking, nothing more. I live too far from them.

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@soup he's a demon, prowling the world seeking the ruin of souls.

 

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@elsa I will never forget. You jumped in and told me when it first happened that it was a demon. You said it was a demon testing me and my strength. When I see a hint of this nutter I get a little scared. I worry... will the thing finally outsmart me? I wish I could just loudly confront him and expose him but .... this is a very smart demon. He knows he can't just march in center stage because everyone will see him. He's just hanging around the outer edge of my life. And has been since around 2017-2018... well that is when I first noticed him, anyway. He already destroyed me in HS and cracked my soul for the next decade (on the inside where no one could see) He's so stupid. I would like to claw his eyes out.

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@soup good men follow a man code... you do not come in and try to weasel someone's wife from them. My husband would kill him, literally, put him in the ground.

But that aside, think about it.  You're in your coop with your husband, he's the fox. No matter what he says, destroying you for his own satiation is the game. I would pull my energy in, fast, fully and permanently.

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@elsa Well then this makes my Pisces husband a very bad man because he was an interloper. I was married. He knew it. He followed me and stalked me for 9 years. Did not care for one moment what my husband thought or said and would have gladly done whatever to destroy my marriage... and sure tried. 🤣 

Now, that said I was not in the best marriage. And I was not happy with the Sag. But he was wrong to stay in my face like that. He was not a man that followed a man code. He never gave a thought about it or that that man was my children's father. It took throwing a fit, telling him to F off and never stop by my home again... to get him to stop. And he still waited. When he came back again the last time, my youngest son threw a football at the hood of his vehicle and screamed never come near my mother again. 

Here we are. Decades later. So, he was not a good man. 

The interloper has no way to contact me. Socials locked, phone number changed, address changed. But I can still feel the energy. Same way it felt when this one was doing it. 

Once in my life it would have been nice to meet a man, date and have a normal progression in how these things are supposed to move forward. I married stalkers. 

You can pull your energy in, do everything you can to keep people away. Even call the police. Get a restraining order. If a person is determined to get around walls, they will. 

I can tell you this for sure... I have no interest in ever having another thing to do with a man. At this age... just let me die in peace without the hassle haha 

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@soup well, it sounds like they're both obsessed. I wonder how you husband feels about having this come around... someone do to him, what he did to someone else.

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@elsa See how it all comes around. He hates it. We all have to look in the mirror. I've had to do it (regarding other things) and that is how we learn when we refuse otherwise. He likes to pretend it doesn't bother him. He says to me and to people... I am so sure of her. She is loyal and true to her death. It doesn't matter who comes around. She is not a cheater. She would never do that to me. She wouldn't do it with me. So, I know. 

Does he? 

You are right. 

I have listened to so many great love stories. Stories about people who meet, they date, they meet each other's families, they fall in love, get engaged. Big wedding, closest friends and fam there. Buy a home, have kids. I have watched so many people successfully go through this natural progression. 

Never happened to me. I only saw people I knew for years prior ...... that were eventually two hooks in my back deep. Maybe from no bar to measure by because no dad around?  But my grandfathers were both always there and married to grandmas forever. 

I think it's just the life of a plutonian. You understand it. The worst things have happened to both of us, no fault of ours ... nothing we caused or could avoid. And I have tried to take responsibility for my part but not much I could do when I was a kid to avoid these things. 

I just talked to him about karma or whatever the come around is called to different people, last week. I said I cannot mind that - this or that happens to me when I know damn good and well there are things I have to pay for. It may come back different than how I did it. But it is gonna hurt me the same way it hurt someone else, and I do want to pay it back before I leave this world. 

He said, well I have never done anything wrong. I said... okay.... except chase another man's wife for a little less than a decade. He said... this doesn't count because we eventually got married so it was meant to be and not something I did wrong. I said, I am afraid to tell you that is NOT HOW IT WORKS. I had to stop talking to him for a while because all I could think was .... did I really marry someone this delulu or morally corrupt and if I did... what has he done that I may not know about. This... is how the Scorpio mind reels.... 

Then I just put it down. Because, you have to. What good does it do bring it up? He really doesn't see he did anything wrong, because he won. 

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@soup most of us have chased another person's spouse and all kinds of other things... but at this age, come on!

My comment was about this other man who gives me a very bad feeling, frankly.  I don't run around calling people, "demons". I really picture him, like he's in hell, grasping for you.

As I recall, he's rich or whatever. Has nothing to do with it. He is a demon, clawing and you should leave him be, in my unsolicited opinion.

^^ that's another indication. I don't generally give unsolicited opinions. I think this guy is very bad news... I don't know why, but if you were to go with him, if would be very for you. He wants to consume... like a demon.

I don't wish bad things for anyone, but this man, I would be giving very wide berth. Like, "there's a demon there, let's cross the street" wide berth. 

 

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@elsa oh...I know. It's gross. And weird. And there's no way to get to me so it doesn't matter. I'm isolated. Protected by family and prayer. 

Years ago when he first contacted me acting like he was just questioning me about a high school get together... he asked if I believed in God and if I went to church. 

Odd. Right? 

Immediate red flag 🚩🚩🚩most people don't ask that kind of question unless they are wondering what they are up against. Like the power of God,  really good intuition with some very over protective ancestors ✨️ 

Ultimately I can't blame anyone for anything. I'm in charge of my actions. And I'd never go with a demon. First...money means nothing to me except to have enough to live. So that's not enticing. The guy really hurt me when I was a kid. Then walked away unscathed. He'd feel it this time. I'd set out to destroy him.  

I would never let anyone hurt my family.  I'm almost done with this Venus square but I have to deal with the sun square. My sights are set on heath. Fighting for my heath I've made great strides just since 3/3. 

 

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@elsa I think your thinking is clear and concise, concerning your husband. It sounds stressful, though. He is lucky to have you in his corner.

On another front. Stress wise I think everyone needs a BioMat. I have had one a couple of years, and just started using it in the last month. Even the smaller one, would do wonders for anyone.

It’s a mat you lay on, that heats up. Stitched into the mat, are a whole bunch of crystals, a lot of Amethyst. It’s wonderful, guaranteed.💜

 

 

 

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@turtle thank you!

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Sometimes I wish I could go back and ask Jeeves.

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Very weird and cool.

My dentist is VERY young. In his 20's.  His entire staff is also in their 20's as of today.  They are all exceptionally nice and polite and such. It's a trip.

There's a senior dentist on the other half of the building, but this part of the practice is run solely by the young... average age is probably 23 or 24. I've never seen anything like it.

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There is so much I want to say about the strange going ons in my life, internally and externally. I’m dying to say some things but I don’t feel safe discussing anywhere. I have to just eat it I guess. Eventually this urge will pass. I wonder if it’s not healthy to keep things inside.

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@sirena-oceana you're welcome to reinvent yourself here. Purge and dissappear.

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