It gets to be too much for me. I get overwhelmed. I have all and I mean ALL social media turned off. He passes me as he comes to the kitchen to tell me of the antics of the players in the house. Or of the laws broken. Or of idiots acting like idiots. I asked him today to stop telling me. I have it turned off for a reason. Then I go take a nap. If I don't pause, nap, stop, take down time... it triggers me, and I will not take the bait. 

What will I tell them? .... That it was an abomination. And I had no power to stop it. In 2024 I was just trying to stay alive, but I had no idea why. 

Praying. 

Just trying to survive.

If I'm still around and there's anyone else left to tell -- procrastinating as usual!

I feel like I'll sound like a sickening teacher's pet, but I'm still going to say this.

I will stay I stood up to the pressure.  I maintained my integrity and I lived in accord with my principles, regardless of how challenging or difficult it became.

I helped and/ or encouraged everyone I could possibly reach. I kept up my effort, regardless of what it cost me, personally.

I worked hard, striving to understand, and shared as much as I could with everyone I came across.

I pulled my horns in, taking special care not to hurt other people. I assumed everyone needed this courtesy, rather than try to discern and judge other people. I encouraged others to do this as well.

I maintained a blog and a newsletter, and worked hard to deliver ideas that might really ease a person's stress and burden. 

I also worked hard to NOT burden anyone, for any reason. I also avoided taking my angst out on... the plumber, which reminds me, I was also extra patient with people.

Basically, I've taken this whole period to be a test of my resolve. I learned my resolve of a decent standard.  I feel very good about this, as I don't want to be a lowball individual. I had the capacity to do these things, do I did them.

I also think it's going to work out.