“That which does not kill us should make us breakfast.”
–a guy I used to know
There’s an interesting discussion over on the boards regarding the use of dead bodies for science, The Body Farm: Dead Bodies Lying All Around. That’s very Mercury Venus in Scorpio, for sure, talking about (Mercury) what you prefer (Venus) after death (Scorpio). Throw in a sextile to Pluto and it’s a perfect pre-Halloween taboo discussion. Due to my own astrological makeup I have a pretty extreme position regarding this subject: in regard to my own comfort, I don’t care about what happens to my dead body. That’s not really all that interesting as plenty of people have extreme opinions on certain subjects. What I find interesting, astrologically, is that I used to hold the opposite opinion. And the astrology supports that too.
I have Saturn in the 8th (rules about death), Pluto in the second (powerful values about what is mine), Chiron quincunxing the ascendant (damage shaping how I feel about my body) and Neptune squaring the ascendent (the ability to elevate or downplay the importance of my physical body). I also have Pluto trining a Saturn Moon.
When I was a kid I was exceptionally emotionally sensitive. It took me a very long time to learn when and when not to apply my compassion. I was extremely attached to my possessions. I treated my stuffed animals like they were people. It went so far as to extend to other inanimate objects. If the garbage can was empty I didn’t want to throw even a kleenex away because it might be lonely. It caused me emotional pain to consider it. From a purely social science approach that would likely be categorized as being on the obsessive compulsive spectrum, minor, but on it. I tend to see any disorder as a common trait in the extreme, to the point of dysfunction. But my point here is that not only can one set of energies take on the extremes, either side, but they can do so WITHIN the individual. I would also like to point out that I did not go from the extreme of being overly compassionate to the point of being ridiculous, to no compassion. It doesn’t have to be one or the other. You have a full range to pick from, not just the polar opposites.
Have you changed how you expressed a specific energy in your chart? Was it for the “better,” in terms of functionality?
Great post.
“It doesn’t have to be one or the other. You have a full range to pick from, not just the polar opposites.”
Oy. Yes. Learning that…I have a lot of oppositions in my chart and I am a woman of extremes, in many ways. I recently reconciled myself to this (hey, it’s a stretch better than simply abhorring it in myself). I really feel like I have to travel the whooooooole spectrum to *know* what the middle is. I wish this wasn’t so. Maybe one day it won’t be.
I have changed how I express the Chiron/IC/Moon in my chart. Rather than totally powerless over my emotions I accept that I feel deeply and leave it at that. (Uranus/Moon usually takes care of it in the form of a mood change, anyway).
Haven’t read your post yet Satori but gotta comment with a snort on your quote at the top. My ex used to make breakfast for us all the time. But I left because the guy was killing me!
I treated my stuffed animals like they were people. It went so far as to extend to other inanimate objects. If the garbage can was empty I didn’t want to throw even a kleenex away because it might be lonely.
I remember feeling sorry for a pink gift bow in the snowy street after Christmas when I was a kid. Sometimes I feel sorry for the fish in the grocery store if I think no one’s going to buy them. I can feel the pain of the world, but have to tune most of it out or I’d go nuts and be unable to live my life.
“Have you changed how you expressed a specific energy in your chart? ”
I consciously express the energy FIRE that is missing in my chart. I became aware of the lack after a few consultations. Now I conjure FIRE. I chose faith and I take action. That’s how I manifest my lack.
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About this post, it definitely touches a chord in me. I remember saving lots of empty ball pen refills back in my days. I used to feel for them that where would they go if I threw them away.. Lol. Just collecting every bits and pieces of papers/things from my school days. Feeling bad for beggars, poor kids on streets (in my home country). Always feeling too much for everything. One fine day, i decided to throw all of these things I was stacking up and since then I haven’t looked back. After high school, I kept moving to different places within and out of my country and kept throwing old things away to be able to move with new. Now I feel trapped in the things of past. I need to keep replacing old stuff with new as years move on. I feel a certain discomfort in even looking at past photographs etc.
However, the feeling nature still remains somewhere. My husband pointed out how I have this tendency to feel- Oh, my poor parents, Aww my poor sis, that poor friend and so on seeing even minor struggles of their lives. I feel everyone’s problems and it causes distress in my own life every now and then so much that I even start hating other people of always having troubles in their lives (something which is inevitable in all lives). But being aware of these tendencies has helped me a lot and I am continuing working on it.
Btw, I have sat+moon and venus+ pluto conjunct in 10th, Jupiter+Neptune+mars in 12th.
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