I feel quite stupid! I suffered a (verbal) attack this morning, out of the blue sky. It irked me enough, I looked at the current sky and was perplexed. Mars in Cancer at an early degree? What’s that? Why now? Why me?
It was not a particularly effective attack, but I did flare. Not understanding it irked me even more.
Several hours later, it dawned on me. Talk about a brain fart. Mars in Cancer squares my Natal Mercury… an my Mars. Hello! Earth to Elsa, it’s game on, girl!
In the midst of this, I recorded and posted my Mars & Violence in Relationships video. Sub or rather semi-consciously, I think I was reinforcing my decision to not fire back? I’m supposed to have a handle on my mouth!
Well, Mars is transiting my 6th house, which is another Mars / Mercury exchange. Sometimes I feel I can understand what men go through, with desire raging through their loins; they’ve got to control that.
In whatever case, I’m aware of this now. I’m at heightened risk of attack (in either direction) for the next several weeks. I suppose I can write like a banshee, but why? My planets are in the 9th house and “meaning” has to be part of the equation for me. I’d run all day, but my back!
I wonder what creative ideas, people like me might have developed to cope with these type periods.
Can anyone relate? What do you do with your pent up words?
I’ve given myself free reign to vocalize alone at home. I start by saying something to the effect that I’m doing this to purge. Then I just let loose. I do this however many times is necessary.
I journal daily but it just doesn’t feel as liberating as saying the things out loud.
I tend to give myself an end date for these sorts of things.
Right around the second week of this month I got verbally smacked trying to help someone… then days later I got badly injured on the bus.. a homeless man with a contractor bag full of shrapnel scooted past me and cut my leg wide open (i was mad my doc talked me into a tetanus shot a year or so ago, now i regret it less).. then later a delivery man almost tore off the stair rail leading to my front door and just shrugged it off. I was like… what. the. hell! This mars in cancer started off opposing my mars and will be square my sun/moon/and mercury soon. I have learned I need to watch my back better. I resisted the urge to fight in these situations, took the high road, even though my aries moon gets hoppin’ mad. Hopefully I’ll be better prepared for round 2 in a couple weeks. Transiting my 6th also.
All right! Hoppin’ mad, I understand!:)