This morning I was mulling my behavior in a certain drama in my life. The story is unfolding in a positive way for me. It’s taken many months for it to turn around.
The turnaround seems random but I’m not sure it is. That’s what I’m thinking about today. Did I (subconsciously) design this? I think I probably did, which doesn’t thrill me in this case.
Why I wouldn’t be thrilled to see things go my way is a whole other can of worms. I’m just wondering who the actual architect is. I think it’s me and further, I think I may have acted alone.
This made me realize. it’s been a long time since I wrote about the 8th house (and Scorpio) being driven by their subconscious. I shouldn’t neglect such an important topic.
I feel the graphic is correct in that roughly 80% of what I do is driven by my subconscious. If that shocks you in any way, I don’t think this is unusual at all. Rather it’s the norm for anyone with a packed 8th house. It’s all instinct.
This is from 2007:
I rely on my 8th house. I rely on my subconscious and trust I know what I am doing even when I don’t know what I am doing! Sometimes I don’t find out exactly what I did until years after the fact. I have no choice but to operate this way.
It means I live with full knowledge that what I believe is motivating me is just one of the things motivating me. I’m aware I’m moved by forces beneath my level of consciousness and there is nothing I can do about it. It is called going you’re your gut!
I routinely go with my gut and find out what my gut was up to sometimes years or even decades later when I happen to trip over the knowledge which is almost always alarming. But I like living this way. I have never been bored in my life.
Today, I’m a bit tweaked, because I’m not sure if what I orchestrated is “right”. Yes, I think my dish may have run away with my spoon and having Capricorn, I’m concerned!
I suppose this is the shadow side of all this. Operating becomes scheming once a certain line is crossed. When you’re operating subconsciously, you don’t necessarily see the line, or if you do, you may barrel past it for reasons you’re aware of yet. That describes what I think happened in this scenario.
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