I just realized, my spine may dissolve under this transit... seriously. I mean, it's disintegrating so this actually looks likely. Believe it or not, I'm amused at this.
@elsa Dear God, please don't let this happen. This is horrifying Elsa. Enough bone pain. Going to get help and trucks flying into you then leaving the scene. Enough spinal problems. Riding a lawn mower to get your dogs... I read this and literally weep.... I realize I am probably the world's most sensitive crybaby but ... I read the first line and tears shot out of my eyes.
It's too much for any one person to take. It's pain that isn't deserved. This just cannot happen. People shouldn't be subjected to this much pain. It is not fair and makes me question God.
@soup thank you. I appreciate this. I am in one hell of a quandary. It's definitely excruciating. I cannot walk far, or stand for long. Outside of that, I am stupidly healthy... which means I can live like this... thirty more years!
If I medicate the pain (opiates or nerve pain drugs), I will no be able to work. This is a real thing. The nerve pain drugs that help a person like me (gabapentin, lyrica) cause a 100% disabling side effect in my case.
If I don't take the drugs, which is my choice at this point, my head is clear - I'm back to being derangedly intelligent in my area of expertise... creative and so forth. But it comes with a high price... and diminishing returns.
However, it is very gratifying to hang up with a client, knowing I've helped them. It's also interesting... it's a great blessing and a privilege to get to know so many people from all over the world. It's just fantastic, to tell you the truth. It's unbelievable how many stories I've heard. So the returns are excellent, there are just fewer of them, which is likely to continue for every reason you can think of.
So.. my back surgery is fine. It's actually my leg, where the pain is - just the whole leg, si joint down. Back surgery can speed the rest of the spine crapping out. This may account for some of it... but I don't even think that's it. I think I just got kicked in the head and in the spine too many times. These are injuries, like a football player being hurt, except I was a skinny little kid and it was the steel-toed boot of a 200 pound man.
So... the new pain guy was not too cheery. He's going to do a series of shots to try to calm things down. There is a chance this will work, rotten as my spine may be. At least for now. So I will be doing that towards the end of the month. He has nothing else to offer, really.
This has been going on since around the beginning of October. The pain guy ordered a new MRI, so I am taking it to my back surgeon next week. Realistically, he is the only surgeon (of nine) that I have seen, that would even touch my back.
My PC notes I do very well with surgery. He also told me it would progress, so the idea is to get a hard look at my situation with my surgeon, a no bs read, so I can decide what to do.
So back surgeon this upcoming week, shot the next, pain 'round the clock, and that's where I'm at right now.
Anyway, thanks for saying something. I appreciate it.
I'm hoping that Saturn in Pisces will help make dreams a reality. Saturn makes manifest. When Saturn was conjunct my natal Neptune years ago, I finished school and began a new career in a helping profession.
I'm trying to look on the bright side.
How will earth sign planets fare with Saturn in Pisces?
@jana Taurus - great.
Virgo has to deal with the opposition so its variable.
Capricorn is Saturn ruled. I don't think Saturn in Pisces is an easy situation, but I know many or most astrologers disagree. But I think its a challenge for Capricorn because of the loss of control. Faith based cap will fare better.
The ending of the illusion of control can be very healing for the body.
With a Virgo Sun Saturn conjunction - waves of control are being flushed and washed out as this Piscean Saturn gets started .
Coming in hot is right.
Feb. 17, last day of school before vaca started w/ sore throat. Flat on my back all week with sinus, chest, intestines you name it. The last time I was that sick was Dec. 2019 (hmmm...). Back then I was teaching elementary school and bartender at night. Oh the germs. I finally go to urgent care a week into it and yes, for the first time to my knowledge I have The Vid. Nothing we can do for ya, they say.
Take over the counter cough & flu.
I think for sure the PA who listened to my chest through 4 layers of clothes and a hoodie (it's New England and I teach ice skating too) was just trying to get rid of me. My first time with The Vid by the way, to my knowledge anyway.
Two days later I'm making a left to go get more meds at the pharmacy. 4pm I get into a car accident. Total my car. Airbags deploy. Cop on the scene- what did you have to drink today? I'm in shock looking at this guy. My dog is in the car going nuts. I'm sick as fuq and what??
So he asks me to get out of the car. I told him I had The Vid and was going to get meds.
Not, are you ok? You hurt? Just get out of the car for a sobriety test. And then you try to stand on one leg after that...
So thanks Saturn. I got The Vid, wrecked my car, accused of driving intoxicated had to hire a lawyer for court next week to defend my license and when I went to my GP she took a chest x-ray and pumped me full of antibiotics.
The astrology? Neptune on my 10th house Pisces moon square pissant mars just as Saturn crossed my MC.
P.S. The dog was fine but traumatized and spent the night in the town shelter. He's a Taurus having a Uranus transit.
😳 omg... I am so sorry.
@sk8samurai I understand. I am so sorry.
I look like a ghoul. I have no idea how I have done it myself. I am going through the same thing. My last Scorpio planet is 18 mercury. I am watching Uranus in Taurus now at 15 degrees. And I am watching every word that is coming out of my mouth. Listen. Take it in. Breathe. Read it again. Hear it again. Patience. Then proceed. I literally read this to myself every morning, so I don't forget. I realize some quick shitbag information may hit me at any time and I have to be able to respond without blurting some nonsense.
.... I am completely exhausted.