I’m a 7th house sun (chart ruler) and I think it drives people crazy when they see me unpartnered

that was one of my dreams, to be married happily. it didnt work out the first two times though, it maybe more than enough for many people to just quit right there and shatter the dream because the two past marriages were horrific and came out of some thriller drama movie with lots of trauma, abuse, and stress. yuck. if saturn really making it hard thats just way too far gone. a human being can only take so much. i can imagine how so many people in the world are so fragile too. I see it everyday on the streets, or hear about it, the fragility of our mental state and our need to be loved and heard and be nurtured. but its good there's still alot of kindness and goodness out there. 

a couple of my long time friends aren't married, they've given up on the idea and plus they hear horror stories. they are wary of PTSD guys because of abuse. so even if the man has a good background work, good looking, strong, responsible but he has that darkness to him they will opt to say no way. Also they are fearful of cheaters because we know a lady in our friends circle who has a husband that cheated on her multiple times but everyone suggested to her dont divorce because she didnt work her whole life, she sacrificed to take care of the children while he went to work overseas and in the military so now the kids are grown and everyone told her dont leave since he pays everything and the house, even though he doesn't give her any money for any work she does at home or homemaking for years. nothing. she used to complain to me too that she has no money to buy even a single clothing for herself. but he was always buying the food too so that was ok. But she was ok with it because she thought he was faithful. so friends told her just stay and work it out and he also stopped seeing people on the side.  this in turn made also some of our friends dislike marriage. (anyway she started work late in life, and the kids are grown and working and doing well. she's happier working) One of my friends do have a boyfriend but she doesn't want marriage because he's not healthy and he's older. she doesn't want to be a caretaker. thats another reason.

I’m a never-married. I do desire being in a partnership.

Sometimes my friends who are married disclose what really goes on/what they put up with. Then I think to myself, “Nah…I’m good. I’m just fine by myself.” 

My Scorpio moon doesn’t like that weddings cost so much, and divorce costs even more. I see lots of people my age trying to recover from the resources they lost in a divorce. And yes, several of them are women who were the breadwinners.

Marriage is not that enticing, but I do desire to be in a partnership.